I have been reflecting a lot since my last blog and I know it has been a minute since I have written but God... Here I am sitting watching the sunset over the hills of Arkansas, just basking in the presence of the Lord...
Something that rings so true is that I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land I am living in, whether that was on the shores of the ocean that encompassed British Columbia, or the snowy peaks and trees of living off grid living in Idaho, or deep in the heart of the Rocky Mountains in Colorado. I think of all the places I have moved to. I am coming up on my 43rd move come this weekend to go where God is leading me. Out of all these moves one thing has been the constant beautiful reminder is that God has been there on every one of these moves. His presence is there and will be... I think of how blessed and beautiful, but extremely painful at times my journey has been thus far. That is one thing that is so prominent is that God's presence has not and will not ever abandon me. I may be in the hearts of the jungle, and He would be there. Nothing can compare to the Glory to which I pray, and hope God will get through my story. 42... the number of times I have moved and knowing that God has been there with me every single move.
In November of 2021 God called me to move to Arkansas, and I said ok God here we go! Now moving to where God is further leading me. At times I ponder why God had me leave Colorado, but I think He is looking for simple obedience which won't always make sense to most people. When I moved to Colorado in 2019, I said ok God I am here until you tell me it's time to leave. Sometimes following the call of God will seem crazy or even weird to some people, but from the time since I have been saved since 2008, I've started to really grasp this truth it doesn't matter what people say or think, for I just want to please my Father in Heaven. To make His name known.
Going into this next season I am just trusting that God knows what He is doing and that's ok that it may not make complete sense to even me. God is not one to fail us or abandon us, I tell myself so much that God didn't bring me this far to abandon me, He is not always in our timeline of how we think things are going to work, or our even ideas and perceptions of the Lord. He is in the waiting.... He is in the quiet still moments of just resting... He is in these moments of tears just saturating the floor... He is in these moments of seeing cardinals outside my bedroom window and hearing their songs unto their Creator. He is in these moments where I feel so alone here knowing the same man who holds the stars is the same man who holds my heart. Knowing He is in these moments of His promises right around the corner, if He says something to you it will come to pass. Knowing He is in these moments of the mundane moments here as it seems in Arkansas.
He meets us... He meets us with the Ring and the Robe.. in those prodigal moments. I just know that in this season God has me in He is listening to my prayers and listening to my tears. It has been beautiful the way God is working and moving in my life, and He deserves ALL The praise and ALL the Glory! Since August my goodness He has answered over 19 of my prayer requests, He is moving, and I just have to be patient. God is such a God of redemption stories; I think my dilemma is I have been sitting and saying when Lord is this winter season going to be over instead of dwelling in the beauty of the winter season. Since when did I get so caught up in grumbling about the winter season instead of praising God for the winter seasons. Yes, some of the trees may "Seem dead" but spring... Spring is just right around the corner and how beautiful will it be?
I think so often in our lives, I know at least with me patience isn't there... When God tells me something I want it to happen right then and there but what if there is beauty, I am missing in the waiting period? What if I am trying to rush the process, I miss a very important season for the next step of my journey? To enjoy every step even if it seems to be a small step...He is there.
What my life looks like on 1/25/22 is nothing I would have ever imagined it to be even 5 years ago. If you would have told me 5 years ago, I would be living in Arkansas, on nothing but a word from the Lord and His guidance and direction, I would have laughed in your face and said, "yeah ok...that's not happening." But God... BUT GOD my goodness how He has led me beside the winding path of this journey called life. What does the next 5 years hold I don't know; I don't have an answer, but God is already there. I know I don' t what His plan is for me, but I feel He has given me some beautiful glimpses of His mighty plan. All I can say is Lord, here I am send me.
I think that is all God is looking for is honestly small, simple steps of obedience. I'll let you in on something is that in those small and simple moments God will meet you there...
So here is to the next chapter, all I can say is God you get the Glory!!!
