You know I am sitting here another day at work and just pondering my thoughts. Somethings I have been wanting to blog for a while just haven't found the words to complete my thoughts. Well I will start here my life is ordinary nothing over the edge exciting or worthy of a newspaper telling my story. I am just an ordinary nanny with smashed goldfish and petrified fruit snacks in the back of my car. I live in a simple house with a simple dog. I have a routine and a work schedule sometimes up to 60 hours a week. My life in my eyes has become so ordinary you know in high school I would have never thought my life would become this. I didn't think I would be a nanny for this season in my life I thought by now I would be married and have children. But God's plans are always better and that is something I am profoundly starting to realize. That God has a plan and it is good and who says these ordinary moments in my life aren't of greater and value and purpose then I put a price on them. The moments when I have two screaming children and a barking dog. The moments when the kids are just asleep on me on the couch. The simple moments of just planting flowers or getting the mail. The moments of vacuuming my little quaint home or doing yard work. I think so often in the Christian walk we emphasize that our lives once we accept Christ we are all going to be called to do EXTRA-ordinary things for Christ like be called to live in a jungle in Africa and a be a 3rd world missionary or do some extravagant backpacking trip across Europe to spread the gospel. But I am learning that God has a purpose for these ordinary moments when I talk to the kids about the God we serve they get it and they grasp it. And that is what God had purpose to glorify him in everything we do. Not just 3rd world trips but in these ordinary moments my life may seem dull to some like a black and white colouring book even to myself at times I think of that. How can my ordinary life possibly be making a difference but then I look to the Lord and He adds the colour to the picture he makes it come alive. I am nothing without Christ and I may not think my life is where it should be as a 21 year old but in God's eyes it is right where I am suppose to be. Due to health reasons I had to withdrawal from college last year in Canada and a friend last night was shocked that I didn't return, like I always did but I am learning what contentment is. It isn't looking for that next grand escape or that grand adventure it is living in the ordinary moments giving all credit and glory to God the author and perfector of our Faith. I don't know what tomorrow or next month or next year holds for me and I think it is so easy to become anxious about our future but to anxiety we are basically slapping God across the face saying my plan is better. But God knows what He is doing even if my life doesn't seem to be how I wanted it God's plan is always better and worth it. Recently I got diagnosed with an auto immune diease and it has been quite the challenge but who says this wasn't God's plan in the beginning because it has brought me so much closer to God. I have struggled with anxiety and depression most of my life and have begged God to take it away but it has remained in my life but I know see how much closer it has brought me to God how this has made me rely fully upon God for my strength and refuge. God is teaching me so much and I wanted to encourage you that we all live somewhat to a degree an ordinary life but it is through Christ we can now live an extraordinary life because through His blood we can take off our rose tinted glasses and see that everything we do is meant to bring God all the glory!!!
Blessings
