Home...

 You know in my life I have moved about 47 times... It is a deep cry from the bottom of my heart finding a home. A good friend and I were talking the other day that, home is more than 4 walls it is people who encompass those walls, that fill with laughter, love, sometimes tears and little moments of joy. 

It is waking up on an average Saturday to the smell of cinnamon rolls waking you up because your eye lids open. It is the sound of laughter when your toddler makes the weirdest statement, it is the tears dripping on your kitchen table with joyful news and news that will break your heart into a million pieces. It is watching your dog become a senior from when you have had him since a puppy. Home is more than 4 walls. What if I told you home is where your heart is? 

Sometimes our hearts can be so loud, so noisy we forget to slow down even in our home life. To make a house into a home to have a touch of love that someone to walk in says this is a home not just a house. 

What you pour heart into people will notice. Not merely so the home you dwell in, where you rest your head to lay at night but what about your heart? 

Do you let people in, do you rejoice with those who rejoice and mourn to those who mourn? Do you feel and show people your heart can be a home. 

When I think of the word home I think of the word Hospitality, I remember when I was little I would think that word meant hospital maybe in a small sense it does, it means bringing people into your home and letting their wounds be vulnerable. It means to let a stranger have a place at your table being welcomed with all they carry and saying you are not alone in this welcome to my home where you will always have a seat at my table. I will feed you not to only nourish your physical needs but also your spiritual needs. I will pour into as I have been poured into. 

Where your tears matter, your stories matter and who you are as a person matter. I have always loved this song "Crowded Table- The Highwomen" Take a listen one of the core lyrics "I want a crowded table 

"I want a house with a crowded table, and a place by the fire for everyone. Let us take on the world while we are young and able, and bring us back together when the day is done. If we want a garden we are going to have to sow the seeds, plant a little happiness and let the roots grow deep. If it is love that we give then it is love that we will reap." 

Too many people now a days don't even know there next door neighbor. With my most recent move I have been able to get the pleasure of knowing my next door neighbor, we have usually 2 hour conversations weekly. Home isn't found in an electronic device, home is found in your heart, intentionally building community, intentionally showing people they have a seat at your table. 

I want to show people my table is open, I want my table to be welcoming, where no one has to put a fake face on at a seat in my home. I want my home to reflect my heart. Because the heart is the truest home. It doesn't matter if you are in the cold winters of Idaho, or the Rocky Mountains of Colorado, or the desert air in Tri Cities WA. What matters is your heart is it a place of home for others, or are they met with coldness, isolation and no one enters. 

When I think of home too, I do think of my Grandma Basehore: I don't think there is a day that hasn't gone by that I don't miss her and wish I could hear her voice one last time. My Grandma Basehore during the lifespan of my life lived in two houses but that isn't what made it a home it was truly the heart of my grandma, it was the smell of her coffeecake, it was the love she poured into me as her granddaughter. It was the deep conversations from Jesus, to stories of her in the navy, to stories of her growing up, her college years, her prayers. Just being with her even sitting in silence just holding her hand. Singing and playing piano for her. Her teaching me to bake. Laughing together and a few tears together. Most important I will never forget how welcomed I felt there. I want to leave that legacy not some grand one where millions of people remember my name but a simple matter. Simple Hospitality knowing every one has a seat at my table. 

Because isn't that what Jesus did? He brought the people society forgot, people that the world say you will never go far. Yet they did leave a legacy, even if it was quiet and simple. Jesus was home to many who were orphans. Orphans are those who don't have a home. Yet Jesus sees them and picks them up and says welcome home. 

I don't ever want my heart to not be a home to people. You never know what kind of "house" a person grew up with and many smiles are a facade to what really happened in the house they grew up in whether they had to grow up to fast, or endured things no child should ever endured, or grew up crying in fetal position in the closet, because that house didn't feel safe. 

I have learned deeply in this life that you have to choose to make your heart a home, you have to choose daily to rise above your pain, to let people have a seat at your table. The more you let your past, your trauma, your pain from the house you grew up in shut people out you will end up alone, you will end up with not a single person sitting at your table, and in the end it will be all your fault for not letting people in. It will be no one to blame but you. Any trauma you endured was never ever your fault however the healing is. Healing is your responsibility, to help you make your heart into a home. To let people see. 

See the beautiful think about vulnerability, is that when you open your heart to let someone have a seat at your table they will open up too. Home is a place some people will never experience in a life time so why not create that home for someone? Be brave take a step... Invite them over. I get that "Oh I have social anxiety" I get that more than you realize. But sometimes the best way to over come social anxiety is having a seat at someone's table. 

I will never ever forget my mentors I had in my life they lived by that motto, if you are blessed build a longer table not a taller fence... 

I want my life to reflect that I want people to have a home that may have never had a home, to be fed a nourishing meal, to laugh, to encourage and yes maybe a few tears will be shed, to be a family to those who don't have a family. 

To my beloved readers, you will always have a seat at my table. 

with love 

Makayla Chalee 

Eb and Flow never Stagnant

Take a moment to listen to the song "Canyon"-Ellie Holcomb 

I have always loved this song the lyrics my goodness touches the depths of my inner most being...

"there is a river running through my deepest sorrow... there is a river running through my deepest pain...there is a river running through every dream that didn't come true. Made me a canyon but there's a river running through." 

Rivers are ever flowing they are never stagnant... they keep going sometimes they flow more and sometimes they flow less. You know when I was little, I had the great pleasure of visiting the Grand Canyon one of the vastest canyons you will see in this lifetime. A canyon that was formed by a deep river. 

Rivers symbolize Life and Healing... a lot in the bible and I think of my own life growing up in Tri Cities WA, the Columbia River is what flows through the 3 cities it is well known and well appreciated, I remember so often when I would get overwhelmed with the worries and troubles of life I would go sit down at the River and pray, ponder and reflect. There is something so calming about being around a body of water, Rivers are different than a lake or an ocean. Rivers especially in biblical times were used for baptism a symbolic of washing away the old and bringing in the new. What in your life needs to be washed new? What river need to cleanse the pain of your heart? Rivers bring life.. rivers nurture, rivers a huge thing for the eco system. 

Eco-system wise rivers are vital for fresh waters, support life... is a river flowing through your heart, your past, your future or are you in a drought season? 

We now look at some scriptures Jesus calls himself the living water... How deep can he touch your heart and wash the pain away to reach the dryest parts of yourself and bring revival to the parts you thought were going to stay in the drought season forever. 

Not only can a river benefit you, but it can also benefit others. Rivers bring nourishment to others. We look at John 7:37-39. Jesus said those who believe in him will have living waters flowing through us to help other believers. Let's go deep now. Do other people feel the effects Jesus has in your life. Are you asking others to join you on this ride call life? Where can they experience the true and living waters? Waters that revive, renew and rehydrate? 

A healthy river is always flowing; it doesn't become stagnant... likewise our lives need to keep flowing with the Holy Spirit toiling our rocks in our hearts and to provide fresh springs to grow new life in our lives. 

Life... Renewal... not stagnant. I don't ever want to be stagnant in my walk and I know there has been seasons where I have been but God... He is faithful to pick us up and renew us. Keep us going with the flow the eb and the flow of this beautiful ride called life..

Rivers wash away the pain and then eventually lead it to the depths of the ocean where it will never be seen again, or our pain will produce something even more beautiful in the ocean a pearl. Pain produces pearls. 

So enjoy the ride, yes the flow may be so hard at times you may feel like you are drowning at times but my dear child, God hasn't forgotten you. He is right beside you on this river of life. He will never let his grasp go of you precious child. You are holy, chosen and so dear to His heart. 

May you be blessed this week and know always I am here for you if you ever need to talk or pray. 

With Love 

Makayla Chalee 

Hymnals of the Past but So Present

 On this Monday Morning: I am sitting here thinking of the beautiful hymns of the past. But they ring so many truths of the present. 

Some hymns are sad, some are joyful but every one of these beautiful poetics, songs from the depths of the hearts that wrote them point to a bigger picture than us. Hymnals that were written in the 1800's as some of the deepest pain. 

You wonder sometimes the pain that they were feeling but nevertheless turned their eyes from the beautiful gaze of Jesus. 

Some of my favorite hymnals:

Come Thou Fount-Dated 1755 

Be Thou My Vision-Composed in the 10th or 11th Century 

Rock of Ages-Dated 1778 

These lyrics ring truth when the darkest of nights seem to cripple you to the point of tears streaming down your face...Asking God to take the pain, take the crippling grief of the waves of life that unexpected came in your life tossing you in a hurricane of emotions till you are drowning in the ideations, the dreams and the scenarios you thought your life would be like. 

Some of these lyrics I will forever hold on too. 

Come thou Fount-by Robert R. 

"Prone to Wander Lord, I feel It, Prone to leave the God I love. Bind my wandering heart to thee. Here I raise my ebenezer." 

It is truly such a beautiful story; seeds of faith, pain and redemption. How often do we feel that in our own life, may a delayed promise, delayed hope and deep sorrow and anguish. 

An ebenezer in the Old Testament was stacking rocks one by one when the Israelites moved onto a new step where God was leading them to. It was a remembrance of who God was, what God has promised and the faithful ways God showed up when the impossible, when the tears streamed down their face. When hardships came and they had no idea how God was going to move or show up as the darkest nights were upon them. 

What about your life? What Ebenezers would you build? What stones would you stack in memory of every single time God was faithful that you didn't think were possible? 

My stones would reflect that my tears, fears and years were not wasted. So many times, God provided for me in ways I didn't think were possible. That of providing cars, jobs, housing, food in ways I didn't think was even possible. Tangible ways that it is only a miracle of God. 

Prone to wander Lord, I feel it, prone to leave the God I love. We are so prone to wander, to chase money, success, unhealthy relationships, hurts and things of the world. That touch a deep vast void in us, in the inner most being that only God can fill. Only God can bring. Only the true peace, the provision, joy and hope to hold onto another day longer. 

Be Thou My Vision-Translated in 1905 

Be Thou My Vision O Lord of My heart; Naught be all else to me save thou that art. Thou my best thought by day or by night. Waking or sleeping thou presence my light. 

God hasn't forgotten you dear one. Waking or Sleeping His presence will be your light. Nighttime is hard because it can be so dark, nightmares, night terrors and tears of loneliness. My dearest friend you are never ever alone though. Sometimes the darkest of nights is when his presence will be the greatest light you witness and will feel. You are never alone and you are so loved, the darkest nights show the brightest stars, they also bring out some of the most beautiful moths the Luna Moth, moths are just nighttime butterflies. To have the Lord over your heart, only Jesus. Only Jesus can save you nothing else we can chase, we can run, we can fill that void but, in the end, only Jesus can bring saving to the pain. 

Rock of Ages-Augustus T.

This whole hymnal is so beautiful the lyrics bring in a sweet, strong dependence on Christ solemnly. 

"Rock of Ages Cleft for Me, let me hide myself in thee. Let the water and thy blood from thy wounded side which of flow. Naked I come to thee for dress. Helpless I look to thee for grace." 

This composer wrote this song when a storm slammed him into rocks, and he sought shelter in a cave, a cleft in the rocks. Do we do that in our own life? When the waves of life crash us over, whether it be a loss of job, a loss of a career, a loss of a child, a loss of loved one, a loss of a relationship. Loosing what we thought our dreams and aspirations would be the dreams we had since a little kid. The waves of pain we feel we are drowning in begging God to make the pain stop, tears that flow more than the drops in the ocean. But what if those waves are slamming you into the Rock of Ages, a cleft, a hiding place to keep you safe from the storm.

We face some storms we will never share with anyone, we say pain is too vulnerable, we stay afar from people because pain, loss and disappointments make us push anyone who comes within a radius of your boat to help be with you in the storm away. We say, I don't need anyone, we build walls and then not let community be with us in the storm. 

Jesus was on that boat in the storm...I am no sailor, but I am sure trying to deal with a boat by yourself in a severe storm you will fail, it takes a skilled team to help weather the storm, to weather waves. When you are you let people help you in your storm, you can learn to rely on other people. It is always the Body of Christ that has come through for me in my life. They have been a support as the bible has called us to be as Christians, to help share each other's burdens, even Christ someone helped carry his cross us the side of the mountain. 

My dearest friend your pain, matters to God. He hasn't forgotten you, nor will he ever leave you. 

If you need a friend please reach out to me, you are never alone in this journey. 

May you know that God is faithful in every season even when waves of life crash onto us. 

May you be blessed and know you are loved. 

Grace and Peace be with you, may the love of Christ ever flow out of your heart and know you can rely on people. 

Walls, Rebuilding and Growth

There has been so many thoughts lately that run about in my mind...Sometimes I feel lost in my mind then other times I view it as a colorful chaos...Dancing with the waves of life that toss me around. 

This past week I listened to a podcast about Nehemiah and the walls they were building in Jerusalem. Nehemiah is not a book that is not talked about in light, or it isn't a book that is preached on a lot. 

Some of the consistence themes of Nehemiah are the following... with the biggest theme is God Rebuilds amid ruins...

Faithfulness in Difficult Seasons 

Prayer and Dependence on God

Restoration and Rebuilding 

Courageous Leadership 

Perseverance through Opposition. 

Community and Unity 

Wow... let's take a minute to re-read through these themes. If anything was a takeaway from Bible College is seeing the theme out of the whole book prior and then how it ties into the whole biblical story picture. 

Some of the key verses are Neh. 6:3-"I am carrying a great project and cannot go down." and one of my personal favorite scriptures in the bible is, Neh. 8:10 "The Joy of the LORD is my strength." 

So many times, we look at walls and ask how did they get there? Why is a wall important, and sometimes walls can be a bad thing, sometimes we build walls where there was never meant to be a wall. For instance, I think of my heart I have built walls around my heart and brick by brick they were built by heart, heartbreak and seasons where I didn't think I would have to walk through. Bricks of tears, fears and failed dreams. Bricks of Sorrow, depressions, loss and grief... 

Walls that have been built by pain... but what if just what if... God is wanting to rebuild... Rebuild, restore and redeem. 

In the bible Nehemiah was grieved, he was in pain hearing Jerusalem's walls were still broken down and the gates burned... 

I know it grieves God's heart tremendously watching his children suffer, watching his children build walls around the pain and not letting anyone in, if anything I have learned in my life is this. God hates pain, God hates seeing us cry and God wants to break down our walls so we will let him in. 

Many scholars believe that the walls built in Nehemiah also represented and strongly connected that God can take something so devasted and piece by piece only HE can rebuild it into something beautiful...

Brick by brick he can take down the walls of pain, the YEARS it took to build this wall around our heart to make sure no one even comes close to hurting us again....

I have always loved the quote by C.S. Lewis "To love is to be vulnerable." Vulnerability takes tremendous strength to even have friends when you have been burned so much in your life, so many people have walked out and you question the pain, or you look at the stone you placed around your heart wailing and crying anytime you see it as the stone reminds you why you secured it around your heart. 

 Some of these themes in the book of Nehemiah is absolutely beautiful the first one 

God's Faithfulness in Difficult Seasons 

I often think about my life and there has been very many difficult seasons, leave bible college, lost friends, lost lovers I thought would be in my life, the grief of knowing I will never hold my 6 babies here on earth side, the tears sown in the years of memories with my beloved Grandma, I could go on. Pain serves a purpose and I believe that purpose is to point you to our Creator... Pain can produce beauty only if you allow it to. 

What I reflect on after I wrote that previous paragraph is this... Nevertheless, has God not been faithful...Every pain, every season of not sure how I would make it through the next day His faithfulness has always been there. Providing daily for my needs in seasons where I didn't even know I was going to make it. It is who God is... God cannot deny himself and He has promised He will always be faithful to us and be here for us. 

"Know therefore that the Lord your God is GOD; He is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations."-Duet. 7:9

Prayer and Dependence on God

My goodness I love this theme prayer and dependence on God. If anything, God is the one person that will never ever fail, you in this life. He is dependable and I have so many times in my life that He has provided and taken care of me even when it seemed naturally impossible. For nothing is impossible for God, if He split the sea, He will split your sea too. 

Prayer is constant communication with the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. What I love always is 

James 5:6 "The prayers of a righteous person are powerful and effective." 

Not only does God hear our prayers but they are powerful and effective, God's word doesn't lie now some of the prayers we pray we may not see them in this lifetime but the generations to come. I think of high school sometimes how every Tuesday a group of friends and I would meet and we would prayer walk over our high school campus and just come to pray together for prayer does move mountains. 

Restoration and Rebuilding 

Sometimes I look at my current life situation and I ask, "God how will you restore and rebuild my life that seems to be in the ruins right now?"

The difficult times in my life I now see how God moved, worked and rebuilt... The rubble, the frustrations, the broken dream and the ruins... he gently came with a hammer, cement and more to rebuild the most beautiful architectural masterpiece, giving God control and he has rebuilt. 

I think one of the most beautiful pieces he has restored and rebuilt-has been blessing me to become a mom..

Miscarriages change you. Pain changes you.... extremely trigger warning (don't read if you've dealt with a miscarriage"

Loosing so much blood, while you had no idea you were even pregnant is something I wouldn't wish on my enemies. grieving, flushing, bleeding....the tears begging that God would breath life back into my baby's lungs, begging God to let them live again. Tears of agony and pain knowing you will never get to hold that baby again here on earth side. 

This is one of the biggest pillars he rebuilt was I now have 2 of the most heaven-sent children in my life.. I think back to 2019-2020 I begged God; I pleaded Lord why does this keep happening... don't you see my desire, don't you care.... 

I didn't see what He was allowing back then but I see it now. It happened perfectly in His timing... 

Every word of God is a promise and we can rest assure on it. 

"I will restore to you the years that the locust have eaten."-Joel 2:25

meditate on that for one minute repeat it twice you... He WILL restore the years that the locust have eaten. It isn't well your pain is too much, those miscarriages will not be redeemed. No he is making a promise He will restore the years of pain... 

There has been so many themes of God's faithfulness admist my unbelief in my life. If I could type this out we would be here a long time. 

My thoughts are getting a little scattered but I am happy to be writing again and discovering myself again after many years of pain. 

Please know I am here for you and you never have to walk through pain alone. You are loved, you are not alone. 

Please reach out to me if you need prayer, a hug or even a friend to listen to..

With Love 

Makayla Chalee 

Grief...

 Today I wanted to talk about grief... I think it is something that isn't talked about enough because we want to hide the pain, we want to not be vulnerable...Grief can be so painful, it can be screaming while having your heart be wide open bleeding everywhere. 

Grief can come in waves too, sometimes they are tsunami's and sometimes they are ripples. But if you sit long enough in the waves to let the emotions roll over your feet you will learn something. You are strong enough to withstand the waves. You are strong enough to withstand... 

I have had so much grief in my life from: loosing friendships, my dog Timber, not finishing Bible College 6 of my babies, my Grandma, my dog Rosie, jobs, the idea of having a body without auto immune disease, and I have lost parts of myself I don't ever think I will be able to retrieve. But maybe just maybe in part of grief you end up finding a better, a more hopeful version of yourself. 

I think of my grandma often, she lived to be 100 years old, she passed away April 2025, she was such a cornerstone of my faith and a pillar of hope in my life. Any time I would call her we would have the most special conversations. During the end of every phone call she would say "Makayla I pray for you all the time." How I wish I could hear her voice one more time. I wish I could pick up that telephone and listen to her one more time or write her one more letter...

I think we are scared to sit in our grief for a moment and listen to the waves of emotional pain wash over our bleeding hearts. I think we are scared to slow down and just listen to what our grief is trying to tell us. 

Psalm 10:14 states this. 

"But you, God (YAHWEH), see the trouble of the afflicted; you consider their grief and take it in hand."

The God of the universe considers our grief how precious must we be to God that He cares for us, He cares that some days we cry remembering the pain. Some days we say Lord give me the strength because these waves are so big. 

John 16:20 states this (what is amazing is this is actually words Jesus himself said.)

"Very truly I will tell you, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy." 

The context of this passage is important if I learned some things from Bible College is that scripture needs to be taken in context the overall portion of this passage in John was Jesus prepping the disciples for what was to come with his death on the cross. He was prepping them that they would mourn over his death but to rejoice because their grief will turn into joy. 

Joy isn't just an emotion it is a choice; joy is different than happiness. Happiness can sometimes depend on something you could lose. Joy is stating "Lord I don't know how you will make a way, but I will continue to trust you." Joy did you know the most Joyful book written in the Bible is Philippians? When Paul was in prison. "Count it all JOY my brothers when you face many trials."

Joy sees beyond the grief, now I am not saying it isn't ok to feel your emotions, God made our emotions for a reason. Grief is part of being on this beautiful journey being a human. God didn't make our thought patterns black and white. I know I struggle at times to see the grey or the color in-between. But what if grief has some color? What if the depths of grief can produce some of the most vivid colors in your life you didn't know existed? 

He sees your tears and though sorrow may last through the night joy comes in the morning.

Please let me know how I can pray for you. I think that is all I have to write today God bless my dear friends, may you truly know how loved you are and you're not alone. 

Love, 

Makayla  

Up From the Ashes

They say out of the ashes we will rise... what does that even look like?  

Pain it is a part of everybody's story, it shapes you, recreates you and makes you look at the world differently...It seems fires destroy... but what if fires actually provided refining. and dare I even say beauty?

"And I will refine them as silver is refined, and I will try them as gold is tried: they shall call on my name, and I will hear them. I will say, they will be my people and they shall say The Lord is my God."-Zechariah 13:9

Fire destroys but fire can also rebuild. After living here in Arkansas for quite some I have noticed something they do in this state which other states I have lived in do not do... It is this something called a control burn, where they intentionally set a portion of the forest on fire. Why? What is the purpose of this well it is so it can be made healthy. It is so new life and vegetation can grow new life. 

The way to refine precious metals like gold or silver is to put them through the fire. To melt down all the imperfections, all the impurities and the blemishes we see. 

I know I have been going through a heated fire right now and I am screaming out God can you get me out of this, can you rescue me? 

And my goodness he has, He has heard my cry and has heard my plea. 

What I am thinking about right now is how God knew this specific fire would happen in my life yet none the less turn his ears from hearing my plead. None the less would come running to my rescue as a Good Father does. Yet none the less try me through this fire, but I am still stay The Lord is My God. He is Jehovah Jireh the Lord will provide, Jehovah Nissi the Lord is My Banner and Jehovah Rapha the Lord is my healer. In church we are learning about old hymns and the names of God and where most of them originate from in scripture.

How many people in Genesis went through their own fires, where everything was destroyed but new life was reborn. New life grew. 

Did you know that in forest fires life can even begin to re-grow as early as 3 weeks post fire? 3 weeks what can happen in your life in 3 weeks? Ferns can grow back as soon as 3 weeks...Did you know that ferns are one of the oldest plants to be here on earth? What if before your blooming season it is your fern season? They are one of the few plants that don't produce seeds or flowers. Something I just learned today too is did you know that they are some ferns that can handle extreme conditions that would otherwise kill another plant. They are one of the fastest plants to grow back after a fire. And in some ancient cultures they viewed ferns as a symbol of rebirth. Wow long before controlled burns, long before the benefits of fires... 

Rebirth what if that is what I am going through instead of a fire destroying everything it is rebirthing... Rebirthing a version of myself that never even knew existed. You know what animal also rebirths one of the few animals is a butterfly it transforms from a caterpillar into one of the most beautiful insects that God created. I look back on my life and I couldn't see it for a while but rebirth is possible. 

Re-training your brain to learn new patterns, new self-respect an learn who you truly were created to be. To be a fern and push through extreme conditions..

They say short term with forest fires life starts growing back 1-5 years, then long term 20+ years. 

Who says that to start to heal only takes 3 weeks long? I believe people can heal at tremendous rates when they are leaning on God... Not just leaning but pressing into the Kings of Kings. To be tried in the fire and still standing saying Lord thank you that you are here in the fire with me.  

So maybe just maybe instead of destruction it is a new season of re birth. 

"Dear God

It's hard for me to rest when everything inside beats so fast

Hard for me to accept love when all I've ever known are heart attacks

And heart failures, cardiac arrest, you see

I'm not used to being healthy

Just making sure everyone thinks I am, but who am I?

I always ask myself the question, why this fearful heart can't accept your reckless invitations

And maybe I've seen too many brave hearts get executed and I'm afraid to be next

Got all this pain locked inside but I don't know how to open up my chest

So just leave me to myself 'cause it hurts to get cut

Except every time that happens, I self-destruct

I lie, I hate, I blame, hurt everyone I love

Like what's wrong with me God? Am I allergic to love? Your love?

Please help me to receive it like medicine for this low-grade fever

'Cause I'm so tired of feeling sick and tired

Out of control like a soul that would never be treated

But I heard you love healing broken things

If I step back and surrender all the pieces

And you promised to give me something whole in return if all I had to give was a few mustard seeds and

A little bit of faith

A little bit of hope

A little bit of trust to have to believe that's enough

A little bit of faith

A little bit of hope

A little bit of trust to have to believe that's enough

For You to start also for You to finish

And I'll get out of the way while You handle Your business

I'll lose control while You handle my senses

Give You all and You take away my defenses

So God, I'm running back to the start

I won't run anymore

You have my heart"-

Up from The Ashes Live-Urban Rescue 

I am no longer ruined.. for up from the ashes I am being reborn I will rise... And there will be re-growth, re-birth and renewal. 

Until next time dear friends, you are loved more than you know and if you ever need prayer please let me know you are not alone in this fire...