The Blood of Jesus Speaks for Me

The blood of Jesus speaks for me.... And that is enough for me. He has called me redeemed. His blood shed on Calvary so I could live free.

Freedom, to learn what the Lord has in store for me. I was talking to a friend this weekend and he mentioned to me not only is Christ wanting to do surgery but give me a whole new heart. A heart full of a new love a new hope a new redemption. Only Christ can turn a heart of stone into a heart of flesh. A fresh start....

A fresh start is what I have been given to seek and run only after Christ. And throw EVERYTHING that was hindering me off and diligently pursue Christ. The one who fights for me is King.

That is something I am learning the ONE WHO FIGHTS for me is King. KING that means I am called royalty in Christ's eyes. In the Kingdom of Heaven I am who GOD says I am! And that is a daughter of the Most High. I am no longer bound by things that have shaped my heart into ways that haven't been of Christ. Christ loves me and that is enough. I am learning that, this one truth Jesus loves me this I know for the Bible tells me so. He has boundless grace and Love for me. Satan accuses and makes claims against me but Christ's love defends me. I can now find life at Christ's expense. He is enough for me. Open heart surgery but more so than that a heart transplant. A heart throbbing after one thing to be kingdom minded. To love others with complete sincerity and rise above the ashes. For Christ has bestowed on me a crown of beauty inside of ashes. To worship Him with everything that is within me. A foundation of hope is what I have been given. No turning back. No going back only moving forward from this moment onward. Seeking the prize running after God's glory and making HIS goodness known throughout the land.

Christ is fighting for me He always has been, He is pursing me from the start. I look at my life and see how FAITHFUL He has been! And how much LOVE He has bestowed on me and lavished me with.... Why? I was so unfaithful to Him at times, cursing His name, stating I was done with Him... Why? Because that is HIS nature is being faithful to people even when we are unfaithful. He is full of LOVE, full of grace and full of mercy. He is wanting people to run so hard after Him they don't care the cost. They don't care of momentary things or people they have lost in this life for Christ is ENOUGH.....His love is so incredible and so tangible. His love is real in this world when everything else seems unreal.

Heart transplant, a heart of stone to a beating heart of flesh.... Living breathing and moving in my life is what God is doing in my life, arising dead things of my heart. Things that have been dead in my heart that He is resurrecting to life....why? Because that is who HE is, He can bring dead things to life. And give that life and life more abundantly, why? Because He loves His children... And I am a Child of God.

I am not my past... I am not what people have done to me.... I am not who my family says I am.... I am a Child of God. A child of the most HIGH. A child who has a King fighting for her, a child who can run into my God's presence any time of the day and make my requests known to Him....And HE will supply all my NEEDS. He will answer me, He will ALWAYS come through. He will take of me. I need to not fear for the same God that created the stars is the creator of me. Redeeming love has been my theme. He is for me not against me, and His plans are still to prosper for He has not forgotten us and He is sovereign over us. He says everything the enemy intended for evil in my life God will work together for my good! He HAS got me so strongly in the palm of His hands and I want to let you all know that, How much God has done in my life over the past 3 months. What may seem impossible to man is POSSIBLE with God! God is to be glorified in my life and HE will be glorified. It is only God that has brought me this far and I am so PUMPED to see what He is going to keep doing, the journey He is going to take me on!

He has got me and nothing is impossible for my God. My God will continue to reign victoriously and His plans oh man they are nothing but good for my life! For what kind of God do we serve when we ask Him for bread is He going to give us a stone? He loves to bless His children and EVEN when I was far from God, HE was still guiding me and protecting me, He was there when I had nobody and was nobody. He was wooing me with a quiet gentle love when all around me seemed loud. 

To keep my eyes fixed on Christ the author and perfecter of my Faith... Keeping my eyes fixed on Him and the waves will NOT over take me. He isn't going to let me drown nor will leave me or ever abandoned me. And looking back He was there every minute of my journey and He knew me before I was formed in my Mother's womb. He is for me not ever against me! Unto Him be the glory!

Leading Me Besides Still Waters....

He will make you lie down in green pastures and lead you beside still waters....

Stillness is the current season I am in and let me tell you it isn't an easy one for sure. Stillness to Be Still and know that God is my God. Be Still and the Lord will fight for you....

We hear that so much but how do we respond when we actually get the chance to live it? I am not doing so well honestly trying to be still.

You know my life did a huge flip 2 months ago and my brain is now just starting to catch up and I am starting to feel emotions I didn't even know were possible. And I find myself asking God how do I move on? What are the next steps? Can you do really all that you say you will? To hug me so tightly that all my broken pieces go back together.

It is only through the blood of Christ I am made whole again. Wholeness isn't just an overnight process I am learning but it is these small steps of faith that lead to greater things.

Over a month ago I stepped onto a plane and landed in Canada for 30 days not knowing what the next day or weeks held in store for me... But not once did God abandoned me or not provided for my every need! He has now brought me into the mountains where serenity and stillness is what the land thrives off of. Where Nature echoes its praises back to its Creator. Where the night sky worships the one who created and named the stars....

And that same Creator is the one holding me fully and saying to me I am His beloved. His bride, His Daughter....

A Daughter whose King adores her. Who said I was worth dying for to be made whole, to be restored to be redeemed.....

My heart is anything but still right now, it is starting to feel the shards of glass that have been embedded but cutting so deep they have been stuck there for years. For so long, so long I have tried to put a band aid over areas of my heart that actually require open heart surgery. I want to heal and I am ready. I am ready to hand over my heart to the surgeon who formed me in my mother's womb.

I have started reading a really good book called "Your Scars are Beautiful to God." And first and foremost I HIGHLY recommend this book! It is really crazy to see how similar this author's story is to my own. I literally felt like I was reading my story on the pages of this book. Starting to realize when wounds become scars they have stories to tell. I know I have scars on my body, one from falling down a mountain my freshman year in Bible College, another actually on my arm from a recent stay in my home town, where a rock cut my forearm and left a pretty bad scar on my arm, and then the earliest scar I can remember is one on my thigh where I was at Christian Life Academy in Ohio and I was running in a dress and my Sunday shoes and slipped on the pebbles and skidded across the parking lot. But what about my internal scars? I know I have a lot of those and I am finally starting to see the workmanship the Lord has done in my heart to make those wounds into scars the healing process....

I think back to Bible College when I fell down that mountain, I needed stitches for that wound but instead the Dr. told me to just rinse it out with salt water, it didn't work... I needed stitches and that is actually what I am walking through right now is that the wounds in my heart I need the Healer.... the Great Physician. I need God to come stitch my heart back together, to stitch what was been torn and have Him mend me back together. And PRAISE GOD that He is faithful to do so! Faithful to finish the work He has started.

I am going to be honest today was a very hard day for me, a lot of it was spent in tears... But if anything I am learning that God holds my tears and He cares so deeply for me, that He is close to those whose hearts have been broken and loves His children. Loves.... oh how He loves me. But He also says though the weeping may last through the night JOY comes in the morning. He is for ME not ever against me. I think tears can be such a beautiful thing for Jesus is restoring a crown of beauty on me instead of ashes. I feel God so closely right now, His presence and His strength to help me face each day.

I am learning, learning what it means to be a daughter of the Most High. Learning truly how much God loves me and it is a beautiful thing. He has provided above and beyond anything I dare to imagine or hope for. It has been amazing how much God has provided for me when I truly have had nothing over the past two months except faith and God. To lean on God and the body of Christ....


I think that now is the next step is allowing people to walk beside me on this new journey to allow people to come in and show them my scars, to show them the Healer, the Great Physician... That when they ask how is it I am still standing I can merely reply it is only through the blood of Jesus. The blood of Christ that speaks for me and defends me. To show them hey if God pulled me through this, He can pull you through it. To let them know I finally surrender trying to control my life and gave the pen to God. To show them that Jesus stitched my broken pieces together and made me whole. Maybe my heart is like that of a rag quilt right now, I see the pieces cut but I cannot wait to see the masterpiece, the work of art God is going to stitch together for all to see!!!!

I love you all and I am praying for you readers who ever you may be!

God Bless

Please let me know how you need prayer this week!