Love is on the Move

To feel loved and to know that you are loved is everyone's heart desire. Weather you come from the most best family life or the most broken family life it is and always will be the true desire of our hearts. Last night we had youth group but it was a special night called night of fire. Last night it couldn't have ever come any better the voice of God Agape Love which is the love of God for us. We were singing oh how he loves us last night and it struck me OUR GOD LOVES US for crying out loud. He has a love that flows beyond any love we will ever find on this earth. He loves us like we are we don't have to do anything special to earn his love. We don't have to prepare the great biggest speech before him for we can come to him just as we are! Ya know lately I have been thinking alot. We are like stained glass we might be broken but it is the brokenness that makes us beautiful and when Jesus is in control the brokenness turns to beauty and we are stained because it is the crimson blood that is washed over us. God loves us he loves everything about your own unique and amazing personality. He says you are my child and when "I see you I get this tremendous smile on my face and I just cannot hide it" " I call for my angels to look at my marvelous creation!" Though it might not be complete yet it is fearfully and wonderfully made in my eyes. Nothing can separate us from this love no height or depth will ever separate us. He loves us oh how he loves us. When I look at the stars and the moon each night I hear God say I love you more than the moon and the stars I love you more than anything I created on this earth. He loves us we need to realize that he isn't mad at us he isn't disappointed in us and he most certainly thinks we are not failures. He thinks so highly of us that he doesn't have bar put above our heads that we can never be able to reach. He never says we will just not be good enough. But he is the most patient person He wants to be with us every moment of the day every hour every minute. He yearns to be with us that is his hearts desire to just be with us and though we may not be the closest to him He is always the closest to us. We need to grasp onto this thought that God is agape- never ending love. I don't wanna not hold onto this love. And I know I never wanna ever forget about this love and to know it is always there for me no matter what situation I am in because it is never about how big the problem may be it is about how big our God is! God Bless!

Tick Tock Goes the Clock

Have you ever just took a moment to smell the roses? Just take some time to just slow down and enjoy this day or this hour. I know so many time we as Americans must have an agenda like what each day has in store and how it is going to work out. How each minute is going to be taken. Well have you ever thought that tomorrow might now be granted to us? That is why folks its called a present (Kung Fu Panda). But seriously weather that comes from a silly movie who cares it is so true. Seriously why is it we stress over what tomorrow or the next week or the next 5 years have in store. I know as a goal for me I wanna slow down more and enjoy my time on this earth to impact the lives of others. I know for a fact is if I ever passed away while still young I don't wanna be known as just that high school girl but rather a girl that impacted this world. I wanna get to know more people sit down and listen to their life stories. Imagine if every one took a moment out of their day to serve someone else to actually listen and not reject. I know we are busy Americans with jobs, education and family and friends but what about those so called "nobodies"? I know as you read this we all know one of those people. Those people who get made fun of behind their backs those people who sit all alone and those people who everybody just uses for their own benefits. Taking time out of our schedules to help a person who we wanna reach out to think of the change that would make! No more would rumors be spreading or drama being caused but peace would finally reign over. And think of this thought what if we talked to that person about Jesus? The Author of each of our lives. Think of that for just one moment. Think if you talked to that person and just told them that Jesus loves them and they were made for a divine purpose in this life. Can you imagine how that would impact a depressed person who thought today would be their last day because they cannot take it anymore? Can you imagine what that can do? It could stir up a strong emotion called joy that some people seriously haven't felt in forever because something has robbed them of their joy like a divorce or a job loss or a bad relationship. You never know you could save someone's life. I know for me 2 years ago I made the best decision I ever made I gave my life to Jesus what lead me to him was well I was a mess and somebody took time out of there schedule to take me to youth group. Knowing that someone actually cared ya know back then it made my day. Imagine if you were also that person to someone! Just even if you took like 5 minutes out of your time to talk to a complete stranger. Ya know something the hurt and the broken the sick and the weary aren't going to come to us but we are going to need to go to them. Jesus went to the broken and weary it brings me back to that one blog I wrote a while back about the demon possessed man. The man didn't come to Jesus, Jesus went all the way out to the middle of no where for him. He saw that man's worth and he was motivated with compassion to reach out. Lets reach out to those people in today's society and touch them with compassion. Lets take a moment and look through the glasses of what our Big Daddy sees this world as. Because like I said tomorrow is not promised by any means. God bless you all.

A Greater Understanding

Change nobody likes it but sometimes it is for the better. That is what I have been feeling lately God is changing my season around with him I am entering a new fresh start. God told me today a very interesting thing that Change bring perspective and perspective brings compassion. God wants the best for us. He loved us enough to do works of his kingdom for his name. God has called us all to work for his kingdom it is rather if we respond to the call or not. God started a work in me when I first got saved almost 2 years ago and He isn't through with me yet. Sometimes we don't get why change happens or why so everything changes so sudden. But it brings me to realization that God works everything out for our benefit. He wants us to prosper in him not the world. Even if change occurs God will work it out for the good (Romans 8:28). I am excited/ scared to begin a new fresh step in a new season. But I know that in the end He will mold me to who I am suppose to be. Today in the prayer room I thought about something Jeremiah 18 The potter and the clay. God hasn't stop molding me ever but he keeps pressing me and smoothing the cracks out in it. And also just now I thought of something you know how when you make pottery you have to put it in the fire to smooth it out and make it shiny? Well that is exactly what God does also he makes our hearts refined in him shiny and smooth no cracks or bumps. I mean we all don't like change because we love the comforts of our home. We don't like going and saying no I am going to listen to God's call on my life and run after it. God is continually moving forward never moving backwards or stopping in his tracks and going on a different path. God is the same God that lived in Jesus times. Jesus did great things while living on the earth and we can do those same things. We just need to let go of all of our understanding and lean on God's understanding. That is also something he was just whispering in my ear today was just let it all go. I know people that it is hard. It stinks sometimes to let everything go for Jesus but it is beyond worth it. Because God loves the obedient heart he dances over us full of joy and happiness when we are unaware. God has told me so many time its a choice is the sacrifice worth the reward? And all the time for me it is. It is so worth just knowing that God is proud of me. It is the Joy he gives me to let me know he is smiling from ear to ear just saying that he is very well pleased with us. God wants the best for us so why do we keep restraining back. I know so many time I have asked God to use me well he isn't going to use me if I stand still. God wants this generation to move for his name. Change occurs because God lets it. He makes everything happen for a reason weather we can understand now thats a different story. God never said there wouldn't be change in our walk with him but he did say that change brings character. I just wanna say that I am ready for this season God is about to take us all into and I am so blessed by him. God Bless :)

A Past Forgotten But Not Forgiven

The past for many of you involves like hurt, happiness, pain, trials, and ma.ny adventures. But how come for us we can sometimes forget the past but not forgive it? We as humans tend to shut up the hurt and pain that has happened. So many times we say oh we are just going to pretend those events didn't happen. Yet when something triggers a memory all this anger and bitterness surrounds us. WE tend to get angry at the past when we cannot change the past. We need to start forgiving. Why should we hold onto all the anger and rage. All it does is mold in our hearts and turns the good parts black. We hold stuff against others because we want them to feel the pain we felt when they hurt us. For what??? What is it for?? It isn't going to do anything for us in the end but just make us feel dirty and gross. We need to be a generation that forgives the past like Jesus has with us. It makes me think of the current event how that pastor wanted to burn the Muslim bible. I am agreeing with my pastor that is NOT the heart of Jesus. Jesus forgives and moves on and that is what that pastor should have done is forgive the past and just pray for the nation. We need to stop focusing all our thoughts on the past and look what is happening now. And how hungry this generation is for Jesus. Jesus isn't moving backwards he is moving forwards so shouldn't we do the same if we are Christian? Christian means Christ follower. God wants us to forgive so he can forgive us. Its a harsh thought but it is true. So my goal is to stop holding onto the past and just let it go. And God didn't mean for all this pain and hurt to happen in your life but God WILL WORK It all out for the good. And though we may not see it in the present we will see it sometime in the future. God is good and his love will remain forever strong. God Bless you all.

In Memory of Robert W. Basehore

Just a year ago you went to heaven. I miss you alot but I know you are dancing with the angels. I remember that day I came home from my trip and my dad looked worried I could tell something was wrong. I remember when I found out my sun in my world seemed to go black. I remember that night my food tasted like dirt. I remember that gut feeling like is this really happening. Then I remember saying my last goodbye to you and telling you that I loved you. And you had very little strength but you whispered I love you too. I won't ever forget those memories of you and I will always remember all the summer times we went to visit you. Let us not mourn when we think of you but be joyous. For great is your reward in heaven. Soon we shall be reunited and we will dance with the angels. Jesus called you home for eternity. More than 91 years on this earth. You will forever be in our hearts and we will remember your wisdom and your love. Nobody was a better Grandpa than you. We all miss you and know you are in a better place. Love you grandpa :)

On Jesus Time

Time it seems to either go fast or slow depending on what day it is. It is something us humans love being in control of. In the end it seems we never have enough time. Being in control of what happens every day in my opinion it pleases us. Because when we have control we feel comfort and security. But how come we never trust God with that time or say God lets see what you can do in the next day or week. We as Christians or people called to follow Jesus really need to start trusting Him with each hour and each day. When we try to control every situation something usually always goes wrong but why don't we be spontaneous for once and just try something new called trusting God. GOD IS IN CONTROL not us so many times we wanna prove to God that we are strong and we can do this but really God wants to prove to us that He can control the situation. If God created the heaven and the earth then he most certainly can control the situations in our life. Time is created by God and what are you using your time on?

A Passion For His Name

A passion for him that is what has been on my heart lately is so so in love with jesus. Why do we keep holding back from giving God are all? Tuesday night a revelation came to me. I was sitting in the back of the prayer room and in the prayer room there is a life size cross. Well I saw Jesus on that cross and he lifted his head up and kept repeating to me that I love you and I forgive you. Sometimes I just can weep over the fact that Jesus gave up his all so that we could be with him. Dirty sinners sitting as a heir of God. This has just wrecked me that past couple of day s that God so desires to be with us to just soak up our hearts. Jesus and his love cover all of our sin. He reaches his arms out for us his arms are wide open all we need to do is just let EVERYTHING go and climb right in his arms. WE are safe in our daddy's arms he hasn't ever hurt us or left us or stopped caring. In fact right now as we speak Jesus is INTERCEDING for us even though he knows the storms in your life the hard situations will work out for the good he is still praying for you. He loves you and all he wants from you is your heart. Jesus is saying to you I love you and I forgive you what will your next step be?

Shattered Glass

Broken bruised hurt, torn shattered rejected, I am sure all of us have felt at least one of these descriptive words. Brokenness hurts and it shatters our hearts but there is a healer. Being broken it feels like nobody is there and life is hard to put together but it isn't in our hand to put life back together it is Jesus's duty. When we give him all of our broken pieces he makes a master piece out of them. He turns the ugly into beautiful. He picks up all the pieces and puts them back together so perfectly. I was on a walk the other day and I came to a pile of broken glass it made me think that out of anger somebody prolly threw that bottle on the ground and it shattered. Well isn't that what we do so many times is get angry at our brokenness our hurt our pain and just say we are done? But really what we need to do is just give it all to God. He will make it phenomenally better. He hears our cries and he is right there with you. And also something that just came to my mind is this song verse "in the place of suffering there is a GOD worth worshiping." Worship is the greatest weapon against brokenness because it takes a whole lot of guts to stand up to the pain and say no my God is bigger and he deserves all my praise. No matter what season you are in God is still good and we have a reason to worship him. Seasons come and go brokenness comes and go but our God remains and he is a healer and a supporter. He know all about pain but he knows more about his love. His love will mend together all hurt and pain and in the end he does WORK EVERYTHING OUT FOR THE GOOD. Well that is all I guess I have to say. God bless.

A Cloud Of Thoughts

You hold my tears in a bottle and guide me with your grace & love. You lay me in the finest of pastures & you renew my spirit every day. You comfort me when I am down and you fill my cup. You're my portion you're all I could ever ask for. You're my provider, you're my healer. Though my mind is weak my heart is strong. Nothing is to big for you. You make everything work out for the good in my life. You keep your hand upon me day & night. Your promises will remain till the end. You will never harm me or forsake me. You're everything. You whisper my name and tell me everything will be ok. You call me a daughter a heir of you. You wipe away my dark and see the lovely. You know when I shall fall and when I shall rise. Everything I have done and shall do you already know. How wise are you my creator. You hold me as my papa and mold me as my maker. You won't relent until you have every ounce of my heart. You say to me that I am beautiful and wonderfully created. You see my hidden heart yet you have found it. You know what lies ahead. You say you are never done loving me. You won't walk out the door when the waters get rough. You keep pushing me to run the race when I am tired. You teach me not to be afraid. You make me rise on the wings of eagles and soar above it all. You take me back after I cheated on you for other lovers. You gave me the greatest gift of all. You reach for my all.

A Picture Painted

So I am writing kinda of late tonight but that is ok :) Do you know how much our God loves us? Last night during worship I just continued to look at the stars and just realize just how big our God is. Our God goes beyond all of our hurt pain and shame. He is BIG and how I know this was he told me something so freakishly amazing last night. As I was worshiping I felt rain drops hit me and God whispered in my ear that those painful, hurtful situations that I have been in he has cried with me. Those precious tears I have cried God stores them in a bottle. Not only does he hold them in a bottle he makes sure nothing happens to them. He takes care of the pain in our lives and makes it turn out for the good. It may take awhile for the pain to heal into relief but it is so worth it. So anyways back to the night of worship but yea it is incredible to just gaze at the stars and so amazing too. I just know that there is so much more to life when I look at the night sky. Our God is big and he is mighty to save. No matter how shattered or ugly the situation you are in our God shall paint a picture of your situation and make it look beautiful!

Deep calling Deep

Deep what is the meaning? When you say you are deep in a relationship or what not what do you mean. For some people deep means going above and beyond the surface and going down to the most mysterious level. Deep means going extending your love and hope and trust in a relationship. It means going beyond your surface emotions and really pressing in. It means going above those days when you just say I am ok but truly express how you actucally do feel. The problem now a days is so many of us I included are shallow people we don't trust going out any deeper with what we tell people. We get comfortable with just touching the surface details. We seemed to be like that little kid so afraid to go to the deep end of the pool because they cannot touch even if they have a lifeguard holding on to them. WE don't like going to the deep end in relationships because we are afraid we will drown in hurt, pain and freaking emotions. As I was looking up terms for deep they all seem to say extending far. It means letting go and actucally trusting that we will be ok in the end. It brings me to this story when I was younger I was so afraid to jump in the deep end during swim lessons because I was afraid I would drown but before I jumped in I saw my dad holding his arms wide open waiting for me to jump in them. At that moment I knew it was safe. See we do go deep in our hearts to some people but it is that trust that gives us the final security to just go deep. The trust also secures us around our hearts knowing that we will not drown. Deep calling deep in many relationships one in particular is most certaintly Jesus. He is saying my arms are open and you can go deep with me. Jesus wants us to open up to him and to let him know our heart. No more should we be shallow people with the one who created us. When we extend out heart out to him he will give you more of his. People deep is crying out to deep. God bless.

A long time

wow so I guess it has been a long time since my last entry my bad.

Long what does that mean for you? A couple of minutes? A few hours? Weeks? Months? Long is different for everyone different concepts and different meanings. When I think of long my first thought is Jesus's love for me. How long, deep, wide is his love and grace for us. A song that has really helped me through this season in my life is Grace by Laura Story. We really don't understand just how much grace he has for us that grace follows right behind his love. In the bible it states God is always ALWAYS for us and never against us. So why do we keep running when we are hurt or broken? Trust is such a hard thing for many people because somewhere in the past somebody has always broken your trust down along the line. But trust is more than a simple yes or no or a secret it is the ablitiy to understand that you are giving your most weakest moments to another person. It is giving them your all and saying please don't run away. God is saying that to us. He knows everything about you when you shall rise and when you shall fall, he knows every thought and every reaction, every tear, every laugh. He already know the most about you what we need to do is give our all to him anyways because then we will start to reliaze what stuff has been locked up trapped in our heart. When we give everything to God we start to understand more about ourselves. God wants our love to long, wide and deep with him. Love isn't a feeling but its an ablity as in a movie. Love comes from our true character not from a certain mind set, saying I have to love this person but more like I want to love this person because they deserve it. God first loved us before we were even born. Gods thoughts for us is more than the grains of the sand on a beach wow. Now that is long. I often think about why God is for me why he chose me? Well truth is he chose all of us it is a matter if we listen to the call or just ignore it. When you give God the ugly he will turn it beautiful. It is like one of my visions I had a while back I was talking about the ocean and how it was sweeping up seashells from the bottom of the ocean floor they were covered in junk at that time but when they got to the shore they were refined smooth and beautiful. That is excatly how our hearts are when the junk and crap get from the bottom of our hearts God comes smoothes it out and purifies it. I really don't know what more to say but God won't finish something He has started in you! God Bless

FIRE~( it burns)

So tonight I just wanted to talk about fire. I was listening to a podcast earlier and wow it just really struck my heart. The podcast was talking about fire and how bad do we want it? Ok let me ask you this question what does a small little spark do in the dryest of forrest or what we live in is the desert. If you said it will catch on fire then you are right! I want that to be my heart my heart in flames for Jesus burning so brightly. The littlest spark will do it! It will set your heart ablazed in flames. God is OUR consuming FIRE state Hebrews 12:29. He wants to consume us and grasp our hearts. Why is it so hard to keep that flame that God has placed upon eachone of our hearts burning? It is because this world will try and put out that precious light God has given you! You gotta shine it out! You need to let the world see what God has done and put into your life the more you shine the brighter this dark world will get. This life we live by faith and with faith comes fire. When somebody asks you about who Jesus is to you DO NOT be ashamed of our God. For he is mighty and just and he is by your side! If you say your heart burns for jesus than lets give some fire to some other people. It reminds me of this ya know how when the olypmic torch gets pass along from one person to another person this is how I want it to be with the fire Jesus has given me. I want other people to expiernce this passion and this desire. I want other people to expierence what it means to have Jesus as your all in all. I want others to see that the is SO MUCH MORE TO this life than alcohol, drugs, and sex. I want others to know that there is a father who will give them such love that is not word matching. How others will see all this is the flame that burns upon my heart. Others will see the light and come running to it when all their life they have been surrounded by darkness. We are like little children we are so afraid of the dark that we cry out for somebody to come turn on a light. And somebody already has turned on a light his name is Jesus. When we get out of the dark I am telling you that the light actucally comforts us. I know sometimes at night when my house is too dark I will turn on every light I possibly can then it isn't pitch black anymore. Jesus wants you to turn your black heart light again. He wants a fire to burn soooo brightly that nothing puts it out. God says in Zephaniah 3:15 states The Lord your GOD is with you never again SHALL you FEAR! When God's fire consumes your heart EVERY fear will PERISH! This fire I can talk about forever, it is becoming more than a passion in my life to consume God's fire and to keep it burning forever. This passion and this desire just keeps me going it keeps me running when I feel weak. I am listening to the song Obession right now and it is so true " All forever keep me burning keep me burning with the fire of your love." "My heart it burns for you" Jesus I want your Fire to just consume and blaze upon my heart burn everything that is not of you Jesus and make the new creation grow and I love you lord! Well That is all I have to say enjoy the fire and let it burn! God Bless :)

A Man and His Healer

Mark 5:1-20

~This is a pheonomal story it is about how a demon possed man gets healed how Jesus just restored his life and so forth so that is basically what I am going to be talking about :)

So the story goes there is this man who was possed by a legion of demons. And for all of you who don't know what a legion is it is like 7,000 the number. In the old days the term came from a Roman Legion which was a group of 7,000 roman soilders. So ya just wanted to throw that in there. Any ways as the story goes this man got cast away, away from everybody else, rejected by everybody. Nobody could control this man for he was too strong for ANYBODY to chain him up so they basically banished him to a land away from the town. But Jesus came to him on a boat and moved in him and touched his life. Ok now time for the juicy meaty part of the story you better prepare yourselves because it is going to be sweet! God showed me a lot through it and I hope you get alot too! So in the beggining it talks about how this man was possed by demons. It just broke my heart I just see this man being overthrown by the world and captured and entangled in the devils snare. The world has just toss this man like a volleyball back and forth till he was all beated and bruised. And this hurt him so much this story says how this man was hurt it states and "night after night he cried out and cut him self with rocks" wow that really just moves my thoughts because I began to think I wonder how many people at MY school has the world beaten and bruised up till they were truly broken and crying out? My thoughts also running through my mind was this, this man was crying out yet NOBODY heard him because they cast him out. People cast this man out of their lives out of there society and defiently out of any kind of love he could ever recieve. THEY CAST HIM OUT hear me on this so many people in our world have been cast out beaten and tossed around. Nobody cares ever to comfort them or just encourage them which just breaks my heart. He was cast so far away from society it took a good boat ride to just get to where he was and back then they didn't have motorized boats so it too prolly 2 days to reach this place of desertment. The person that did come to this man was Jesus. He knew this man and he was drawn with COMPASSION to persue him and heal him and love upon him. Jesus met this broken man where he was at where everybody else abandoned and disowned him Jesus came and did the exact opposite. What also really compelled me was in the story it talks about in the beggining this man lived in the TOMBS tombs mean this a place where corspes are burried where the dead rot. He was a living man living amoungest the dead. Yet when Jesus came He renewed and gave life to this broken lost man. The story also says when this man was healed of the demons God cast the demons out on a herd of swine and they jumped in the lake and all drowned. Now I don't know about you but I just think it would be funny to see all these pigs jumping into a lake anyways back to my train of thought. What also really caught my eye was when Jesus asked him what his name was, Jesus of course already knew his name but the meaning behind this was incredible he made this man feel welcomed and loved. When the demons came out of him it states he was CLOTHED in a new mind! How fantastic is that? The disciples feared this man because of his new change. When God restores your life he gives you a new mind set and new ablity to believe and dream and BE FREE! A thing I just got from this story was not only was this man living amougnest the dead he was also living with swine. Swine viewed in the bible are

~unclean

~Fierce

~Flithy in habits and lifestyle

~wicked

The prodigal son also talks about a man squarrding off and living with swine. Well it was same case scene here except for the squarding part. He was living a horrible life until that glorious day when Jesus came and rescued his life. The story also states when the man saw Jesus coming upon shore HE FELL TO HIS knees. ( He just didn't get up and say whats up) But instead he feel to his knees that is just how broken and crack his life was. After everything happened this man asked Jesus if he could go with him but Jesus clearly said no because this man needed to go back to his village and preach and tell them about what Jesus had done in his life. Which for me would be his testimony and I am sure when he got back to the town he had one incredibly powerful word to share. It wasn't ever what he did in his life but it is what JESUS had done!

This story was incredibly moving in my life and wow it was some miracle eh? I hope you got as much as I did in this story how our GOD is a God who can heal, restore, and transform our lives radically! God Bless you :)

Pouring It all Out

So yesterday again I went to the prayer room at my church and my goodness the lord showed me so so much! What he has put on my heart lately is that He will carry us to his table no matter where we are in life, or how weak we are to even manage to get to his table he will swoop us up into his loving arms and take us to a place where we can indulge in his love, mercy and grace. At his table we will never go hungry or thristy again he will always satisfy every one of our needs. He won't ever leave us dry or empty :) Well also what the lord spoke to me yesterday is just pouring it all out on him He showed me two stories in the bible which really stood out. The first one comes from the story of Luke 21:1-4, the story goes Jesus was taking offering and the rich people gave what they wanted to however this poor widow came up and put in her only 2 coins she had which were worth less than a penny and Jesus looked upon this widow and said she put in the most ever. She poured her all out on Jesus because he was so worthy to be poured out on. The second story comes from the book Matthew 26:6-13 this is the story of the woman who took her alabaster jar and broke it over Jesus and anoited him with it. I have to say a woman gets an alabaster jar when she got married back then it is a very expenisve fragrance. And yet she poured it all out apon Jesus. I want to be like both these women just pouring my all out on the one who is ever so worthy to pour out on. Jesus poured his blood out on us so what is keeping us from pouring our all on him? I want to be a generation that just gives everything back to God. To just pour out my alabaster jar apon his beautiful head. To saturate him with my love and my heart. To give my offering when I only have pocket change. So ya I encourage you all to just pour out on Jesus this week and he will bless you! God Bless :)

Jesus it all GOES to him!

So well today is easter right? Well I guess I just want to really talk about the life and amazing joy we get from this day! Ahh I don't even know where to begin. Well for starters here.... So last night I went to a hockey game and I felt lead to ask random people this question last night "if you were to die tonight would you go to heaven"? I talked to 6 people total last night the one that really stuck out the most to me was a boy who was like in 4th grade he said he wouldn't go to heaven that when you die you just lay in the ground that is all. My heart just broke into two pieces for this little boy. Wow I just cannot get over it that he is that young and he believes that he isn't going anywhere but to the ground. I just don't know what happened to this generation or maybe my eyes are finally being opened to all these people who don't know this glorious savior of mine. Today is Easter as we know it and our Jesus hung on that cross so we would know him so we could be with him. I also just wondered last night how many people in this arena am I going to see in heaven. And then that got me thinking that I wanna touch as many people and talk to as many people as I possibly can before Jesus calls me home. And I mean talking to people you have no idea who they are can be nerve racking but hey its NOT for your glory all the glory goes to God. God is defiently doing something in this city the anicent ruins are going to be rebuilt! I guess I don't know what else to say but this God is for sure moving in this city and I am telling you to prepare your selves because God is going to ROCK our socks off! But hey one last thing remember JESUS is risen and he is alive and HIS WILL will be done! Oh and I encourage you all this week to really listen to what God is speaking to you he does speak amazing stuff :)

Poetry For My Beloved :) a.k.a Jesus

I love writting just random poems so I just wanted to share a couple with you all :) and I found these in my old journals but I believe they are very encouraging :) enjoy and God bless

~In His Arms

You cry your tears

~He hears

You wanna shoot doves

~He pours out his love

You hide

~He comes and says where is my bride

You are broken and ashamed

~He sees your pain

You run

~He is the SON

You say go away

~He states your ways aren't my ways

You can't handle this mess

~He says come to me I will give you rest

You give your goodbye

~He says but why

You say I am through

~He says wait I'm making you into something new

You give in

~He says I took your sin

You turn your face

~He says let me show you my grace

You bail

~He took the nails

You won't stand up

~He says drink from my cup

You lay dead

~He says MY blood was shed

You say I am weak

~He says listen to my voice speak

You mourn

~He took the thorns

You get scared

~He says breath my air

You fret

~He says with me there are NO regrets

You say why me

~He says don't you see who you are becoming to be

You are bad

~He says I am not mad

You state my heart is black

~He says nothing good lacks

You say I am sore

~He says take the narrow door

You dart

~He says TAKE heart

You look in the mirror and say I am not right

~He says you are my hearts delight

You say I am out

~He says don't dwell upon your doubts

You scream because you are in pain

~He states look to the cross that is your gain

You say where are you

~He states in that situation you just grew

You stumble

~He says don't mumble

You fall out of the boat

~He says don't worry you will float

You fall

~He says you are my all in all

You flee

~He says stop I am molding you to who you are suppose to be

You reach the end of the rope

~He says don't lose hope

You say I cannot see

~He says just let it be

You are splattered in mud

~He says don't fret you are covered in my BLOOD

You pout

~He says satan get out

You can't go on

~He says there will be a dawn

~A Moment for Jesus

Just take a moment

Be enthralled by his beauty

Gaze upon his flesh that was torn open for your life

Feel the splintery wood running over your finger tips

Feel the anionting oil dripping down your head

Grasp the hands that had scars on them for your salvation

Reach out for his feet who traveled through tempation

Pour your heart out like water before Jesus just pour it out

Just take a moment for Jesus because he sure took a moment for you

~Through Life

Through the rain, through the shame and the pain

Jesus is standing with arms wide open

Through the tears, through the fears

Jesus is whispering my bride I love you

Through the dying, through the crying

Jesus is saying you are so pure and precious in my sight

Through the waves and the caves

Jesus is reaching out for his hand

Through the anger, through the sorrow

Jesus is calling your name

Through the blood, through the cross

Jesus paid off your debt, my dear friend YOU were bought at a price

~The Cross

I stand before the cross and I see the cross before me

The wood stained with the crimson blood

I see the cross before me and see the pain and the gain

The compassion and the pure love that was nailed to it for me

I stand before the cross and the cross sees me

~His words

You say to me "do you trust me"?

I say sure but I am kinda scared

You say to me "do you trust me"?

I say well how high are the waves going to be

You say to me "do you trust me"?

I say I guess as long as I have comfort

You say to me "do you trust me"?

I say well maybe what is the scarifice that will have to be

You say to me "do you trust me"?

I say God I am in pain please help me

You say to me "do you trust me"?

I say yes God I TRUST YOU

A Harvest and a Wheat Field.

So I you have prolly driven by a field or seen a field before in your life right? Well I know I have and they make me so curious about them. I just wonder about them sometimes like all the hard work for the abundant harvest that will await the hard workers. Today's blog is going to come from the book of Matthew :)

Matthew 13:44-46

~The Kingdom of Heaven is like treasure that is hidden in a field. When a man found it he hid it again and then in his JOY went and sold everything he owned and bought that field. Again the kindgom of heaven is like a merchant looking for FINE pearls when he found one of great value he went away and sold everything he owned just to buy that pearl.

So when I read this passage I get two analogies well I prolly get more but I want to share these two with you.

First I feel like when Jesus spoke on this parable we are like that hidden treasure in that field. We are hidding in this field (which we will call the world) and Jesus is finding us and searching after that treasure. He PAID the price just so we would be his prize possesion just so he could claim us before anybody else did. Jesus is also like the merchant because he sold everything to have possesion of that pearl. Pearls are unique and different not one of them is the same size or color and Jesus views us as a pearl in HIS hand he purchased us by his blood.

My second analogy is this I think also what could have been taking place on this parable is this. I believe MY generation is like this hidden treasure in this field that the unsaved are just hidding we are the ones that need to go find all this treasure in the field. When we find the treasure we are going to be filled with joy because we finally can come to reliazition that the LOST are found now! God views the lost as treasure because he is going to use them for HIS glory and his kingdom.

Matthew 9:36-38

~states that the harvest is PLENTIFUL but the workers are few.

The harvest is more than ready the lost are more than ready to be found but it is us the workers that need to ever be so bold and walk out in faith going to look for them. WE got to rise up and take a stand and be detrimed to find the lost and be willing to pay the price so Jesus can have them back. The price we have to pay is suffering and trials and storms. For if we didn't have any how would we ever be able to minister and grow in Christ? We can minister to people through expierence :) God is wanting these anicent ruins to be rebuilt so lets be bold and start looking for the lost!

I encourage you all to reach out to maybe say 1 person this week who could really use a compliment or a hug or even a smile! God Bless :) and hey 2 more days till easter and for sure I will be writting a blog about that until then have a blessed day!

The PREACHER preached it oh YEAH!

So I went to Foursquare this morning for church, because the had a guest pastor all the way from AFRICA yes you heard me right Africa. What he preached upon was storms in life looking at the scripture Mark 4:35-41, Mark 5:1. All of you have prolly heard the story of the disciples in the boat where Jesus was sleeping when a storm occured and my goodness it was intense and I am telling you I got a gazillion goosebumps when he was preaching and my pastor says when you get goosebumps that is the holy spirit shaking ya and I totally believe it! Some of the stuff Pastor James said today was though the storm comes THE GLORY AWAITS US! He brought up 7 points to his sermon

1. Storms never last a.k.a THEY ARE NOT PERMANT! (praise the lord for that because it is momentarty!)

2. STORMS are terminal meaning they are seasonal they don't last that long they pass over!

3. Storms are prophets of calm! (meaning that when the storms passes you are granteed that the SUN IS GOING TO SHINE!)

4. Storms are there to perfect us. The size of the storm determines the LEVEL of our FAITH!

5. Storms are sent to put us onto land!

6. Storms come to determine just how great our faith is.

7. WE can overcome the storms!

All of this is just amazing what he preached upon this morning and it really shaked me greatly! He also preached up HOW church is not about a feeling, church is not about weather or not you "feel" like going to church YOU GO TO CHURCH BECAUSE IT IS THE HOUSE OF THE LORD!

something that really hit me too was he said WE CAN OVERCOME anything! Come on I don't know about you but that is good news! Also when we step out in FAITH our fears and doubts DIMINISH! (1 John 5:4-5) And since we are born of Christ WE CAN OVERCOME. I just love that word right now O-V-E-R-C-O-M-E! That means we can conqueor satan WHOOP WHOOP! WE are warriors in HIS kingdom so let us be so bold and march into the battle knowing we are going to overcome the enemy because Jesus is fighting through us! That pastor truly blessed me this morning and yes it was very uplifting. So I encourage you to really step out in that battle knowin that YOU are going to OVERCOME any storm, and doubt and any FEAR! God bless you!

The ONLY thist QUENCHING LOVE!

So this blog is for all the girls out there guys you can read this too but ya..........So I am pretty sure all of you have seen a chick flick before and you know the just random stuff the guy does for the girl of who he loves. You know like he just embraces her or sends her, her favorite chocolate or whatever. I don't know about you but when I see this my heart just melts like butter inside my chest. I got thinking about this that you know I don't even have to wait for my prince charming to walk instantly through the door when I have the most significant lover standing right before my precious eyes. His name is the name above all names, his name is Jesus. Jesus just say that name over and over again it just flows so graceful off your lips.

Yesterday I went to the prayer rooms at my church and I am telling you they are just so refreshing and peaceful and amazing. Well God really put on my heart just how much he loves me. He loves us even though we are so unfaithful to him we are known as prostitute towards his love states the book of Hosea. Hosea 2:7~She will chase after LOVERS but will not be able to catch them she will look for them but will not be able to seek them. Then she will say I know I shall return to my husband who provided for everyone of my needs. Why why are we so so unfaithful to our beloved Jesus? Why do we run after the world when we fall or "feel" we need a boost or we say we NEED a boyfriend to just embrace us and so we can let out all of our issues or say our problems to them? Why don't we just go to Jesus for he is already to talk with us. It reminds me of the woman at the well husband after husband. She kept going backwards kept goint to the past instead of the future. Time after time she returned to that "well" seeking love to quench this thrist she had for a true love that satisfys here where she is at in life. Jesus wants to give us his unfailing love! He wants to embrace you when you feel down, He wants to hold your heart in his scarred hands. When Jesus looks at you he sees no stain no disablity, no smudge, no failure, no sin. Jesus comes to you and says I take great delight in you! My love no longer is a thing but it is an intimate passion. My love rejoices over you while I sing and dance over my beloved bride. (Zephaniah 3:14-17). All Jesus wants to do is be with us and yet we run from him he states cleary in the book of Hosea this " SHE decked herself in the riches of the world but ME she forgot"! Wow I think Christ's heart just broke in two there Jesus is the lover we forgot when we were dirty in sin, and life. Him we forgot. He hasn't though forgotten us. The world is NEVER going to satsify us and I mean it. It may seem at the moment that it does satisfy us but time after time again we shall be making that long journey back to the well of lovers to seek another one. And everytime we are going forget that Jesus is at the well waiting for us to talk to us and fill us up with HIS love and let us know that we don't need to keep coming back to the well for love when we can just turn to him. And Jesus knows excatly how many times you are going to be unfaithful to him or travel back to the well. But Jesus also knows just how many times he gets to spill out his beautiful love and grace on you. I am telling you this he is NEVER EVER angry or frustrated with you, and don't let anyone tell you that Jesus is angry with you because that is a lie straight from the pit of hell. Jesus is so moved by you he rejoices and dances over you. And when you recieve his love it is the greatest thing in the world. Also I am telling you no love can match this love he always want to just love apon your dry and thristy soul. Misty Edwards has a song called All Who Are Thristy I strongly recommend you listen to that song. But she says and all who are thristy come to the fountain dip your heart in the stream of love. That is all we have to do is dip your heart in Jesus's love. Its is so simple yet we make it incredibly complicated blaming Jesus that he is going to treat us like past relationships or that he is going to yell at us when we mess up or this one I just cannot let Jesus love me because I am not feeling him. ALL THOSE EXCUSES are lies and satan does that too us making us think that Jesus cannot possibly love us, but Jesus does love us. He created us so that HE COULD SHARE his love. He is never going to let you go out of his grip of grace. His love you wanna know just how amazing it is? Well he was nailed to a tree so that you could have and know his love every minute of the day. Jesus looks at us as PURE SPOTLESS bride befores his eyes. He sees no stain :) He took the nails so he can spill out his love on his beloved which is you. He is not dissapointed in you but he just loves you. So next time you sit down and watch a chick flick and mope around afterwards saying why isn't that me or why don't I have that kind of love in my life this movie does. Hear me out YOU HAVE SOMETHING BETTER. You have a relentless savior who is yearning every minute of your day to love you and to make you giggle and to just pour out on. This love he gives to you is better than anything else in the world better than being so passionatly embraced. So I just want to encourage you and say you do have a love out there and his name is Jesus and ya know something everytime he looks at your face his heart melts for you. God Bless :)

Our GOD and His FAITHFULNESS!

So time for another blog entry! My goodness I just haven't had time on my hands to spare since I got back from the Encounter! For all of you who don't know squat what I am talking about well I shall explain to you! It is an all weekend event that takes place in Hermiston Oregon which isnt that far away from here. Well anyways God moved me so incredibly much that weekend. On Saturday night and Sunday was the most thrilling of all for me! Saturday night worship was beyond amazing God's presence was so thick and tangible His spirit just moved in a way most of us didn't think could move. We began to arise and worship God with all of heart mind and soul and I can tell you it was intense! God also brought freedom for me that night which was an incredibly blessed thing! I didn't think I needed freedom that bad but I sure did and I can tell you there is no better way than to shout it out declaring YOU ARE FREE! Then Sunday came and MY GOODNESS it was so just so close to God it was good. Then we did a fire tunnel and one girl prayed over me for the spirit of joy just to aniont me and it did I fell on the floor just laughing! Hey what can I say Jesus loves hearing his children laugh! And also through the fire tunnel I had a horrible back pain that entire weekend and I know God healed me because my back burned and I know that was the fire of God. After the Encounter we all went back home!

So then Monday came right? Well I couldn't focus I just wanted to be worshipping my creator and all of his goodness. Tuesday came and we had no school so I decieded to go spend a day at Interns and wow I was totally blown away. There was no better way to start out my morning then worshipping and pouring my all out to my Jesus. And that night I went to prayer at the church and God rocked so many of there we prayed over my high school and it was incredible! Then Wednesday came and I cannot even tell you all what happened we had youth on fire at lunch and I know God showed up there too! Then after school I went home and a friend took me to starbucks and she blessed me which was really nice of her! WELL while I was drinking my drink I got this word for this lady sitting by us of course my first reaction was no I am not going to talk to her but I ended up talking to her and I know that the seeds of the kingdom fell apon her heart. When we got to breakthrough that night I cannot even tell you words that describe this place it is like my second home my place where I can just let life go and soak up jesus! The message was over obedience and I know one of the toughest things I cannot do is obey especially like my parents. (And mom and dad I am sorry for rebelling againist you) and it just tore out my heart it ripped it open and I am not ashamed to admit this but I wept, I wept for letting rebellious spirits get into my life. The sermon just tore me our pastor preached upon obeying is harded than rebelling. But with rebelling comes saracfice. Really think about this for one moment we rather rebel than do what is right, we rather ignore convictions in our head than truly follow them. We rather REBEL againist the GOD who created us in his image than to follow his will and his voice! But don't get me wrong God's grace is sufficent for you! God's ways are never for us to rebel but be so obedient to his voice and call. Which brings me to the next point of this blog entry well last night after breakthrough I went home and I heard God ask me to go spend more time with him so I did and I prayed and I am telling you right now GOD is FAITHFUL and he hears every one of your desperate crys and prayers. Well He answered my prayer I prayed that salvations would start to take place at my school and guess what! Today at lunch God was faithful a girl got saved today at lunch! It was just me, my friend and my other friend and the girl. And God showed up just like he showed up this past weekend and all through this week. The greatest thing I love is I know that there is GOING TO BE MORE SALVATIONS on our campus and greater passions for CHRIST! This is my generation and we are going to march into battle KNOWING that we can overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimonies! WE are going to kick some satan butt we are going to over come the enemy, and if we fall we SHALL rise again and continue marching on. For we are coated in the ARMOR of THE LORD and he shall fight with us! My generation is no longer going to be overcomed by evil but we are going to overcome evil with JESUS! The worshippers are arising take a stand and come join the battle! I am telling you this that the fight is totally worth fighting for! I encourage you all to keep stepping out in faith and reading your word daily because that word is a double edged sword to slay the enemy! Have a beyond blessed week :)

Listening To God

Ever have those days where it just feels so incredibly good to sit at someone's feet and just soak up their knowledge and wisdom. Maybe for you it is a grandparent or a parent or a pastor. Well today has been one of those days for me where I just wanna soak up some knowledge and wisdom from my creator Jesus. Mark 10:38-42~ As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the feet of Jesus listening to what he had to say. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do all the work by myself? Tell her to help me!" "Martha, Martha the Lord answered ,"you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her."

So this is wow another excellent life changing scripture found in the bible. Why I chose this verse for my blog today is because it truly is amazing and it surpasses all your worries and doubts and just lets you soak up Jesus. So what amazed me by this passage is that Mary was the one quietly sitting at Jesus's feet just soaking him up. It brings me to a wonderful image. I have a friend who is somewhat very quiet and calm and laid back, I just picture Mary the same way she knows that nothing is to worry and that she just pressed into Jesus with all of her heart and he gave her knowledge that she would hold onto forever. Martha on the other hand is alot like me I am always wanting to rush rush rush. But that never works for when God is whispering to you. I am guilty of it for sure I can get so caught up with prepraring my heart that is a mess trying to clean it up without Jesus. And I forget that Jesus is sitting just like 8 feet away just waiting for me to sit at his feet. And after I sit at Jesus's feet he comes and cleans out my heart for me and it is alot easier work for him than it is for me. Today is the encounter and I am really excitted to see how God is going to work and move in my life I hope this encouraged you to take time today and just soak up Jesus. Because when you take time out of your busy bustling day Jesus will be soooo incredibly faithful and will meet with you. And take time to listen to his whispering gentle voice it really does sooth your soul and heart and mind. God Bless you all :)

So Good To ME!!!!

So I was listening to my i-pod today and the song came up So Good to Me by Cory Asbury! It is so true our God is so good to us because He picked us up and He turned us around and He placed our feet on solid ground! God never will fail us but rather He will always support us and hold us with His righteous right hand! I am so stoked for the encounter this weekend with my church God is going to rock us beyond rockable! He is going to show up so incredibly thick you wouldn't ever believe it haha! Well I shall talk more about this later :) I am actucally starting to enjoy blogging and I hope you enjoy this blog entry! God bless :)

Walkin' By Faith

So oh goodness faith where do we even begin? Faith is such a huge topic and it means the world to me because we walk FAITH and never ever by sight. Faith means trusting God with everything and letting go of your trust and trusting him. It is far more easier than said than done isn't it? But I am tired of being that girl who walks by my gut feeling I want to learn to trust God beyond life and know that he is always going to come through no matter what season. I was talking to my friend last night and a HUGE point she brought up with me really has struck my thoughts today. She said this earth IS NOT our home and we should not get comfortable here because this isn't home. Really hear me NOT OUR HOME so why my question is do we get so comfortable and caught up in "our own little worlds" getting accustomed to being lazy or being selfish, self centered and caught up in dispair and disbelief. I mean faith means living beyond and above this normal life, it means doing the kind of daily events Jesus did. I mean HE LIVES in us! He dwell upon us and HE IS going to use us for his GLORY AND HIS KINGDOM! Faith means stepping outside what your "used" to and letting Jesus guide you. I know so many times even I have had words for people around my campus to tell them about our glorious saviour but I get to scared and chicken out. God calls us to be warriors and fight for him, fight for that faith. I look at the bible story where Jesus calls his disciple to come and walk upon the water and he started to walk on the water but when he took his eyes off Jesus he bagan to sink. I know when I think I got it all done my gaze goes off of Jesus and I begin to doubt my faith. Faith is more than just saying faith, faith is about getting up and actucally doing something. It may be uncomfortable to say well I am going to get up and talk to that person but its not for your glory it is for GOD's glory. And I know so many times I inculding say God can't use me because I am not as special as my preacher or that person over there. WRONG God can use any one for his kingdom! I mean the same power that raised Jesus from the dead lives in you so why should you be afraid to unleash that power God has given us? Nothing, and I mean N-O-T-H-I-N-G is impossible for God! And that also got me thinking today that He created the universe with the command of his voice and that proves that nothing is impossible for him. God put us on this earth to do two things 1. Give him all of us in heart mind and soul, 2. to win souls for his kingdom. It is time we start walking out in faith rather than our "thoughts" on what God can do he CAN do the unimaginable but we gotta believe it :) Our God is so big and he has a purpose and plan for every single person on this earth. Jeremiah 29:11 states "I Know the plans I have for you plans for you to prosper and not to harm you but to give you a hope and a future"! Wow I don't know about you but that is a pretty powerful statement that God isnt ever going to harm us! And He is going to give us hope so why do we keep hanging our heads low and complaining? COME on lets stand up for Christ and start walking in his glorious light knowing HE IS GOING to use us for his purpose! I encourage you all to take a step of faith this week! For our God is always with us and won't ever leave us or forsake us! God Bless you all :)

So here we go :)

So this is going to be my first blog. I guess haha. So I don't really know how to blog but I guess over time I will firgure out right? This is going to be fun I know that and I hope people will actucally read them and laugh out loud sometimes. Well I guess that is all I have to say so yup :)