With Us Always.

God there are so many words to describe His glorious name and yet all these words can never measure up to the magnificent power. I have been reading in the Old Testament lately and it simply amazes me how good God is ALL THE TIME. We will begin with Adam and Eve God showed up faithfully to them even though they pretty much screwed up the entire human race God had so much love and compassion for them HE clothed them when they had nothing. Even when they were in pain and trouble God came calling their names and embracing them with love. Then we move to Noah and in the storm Noah remained faithful and God remained to Noah more faithful and more merciful then God has ever been. Then we look at the story of Abraham and in his trials and tribulations where did he look? He looked to God. God was WITH him in the midst of the storm no where in the bible does it say and when Abraham was having trouble God was distance. NO it clearly states while Abraham was having troubles He remained faithful to God. And when Abraham was going to go sacrifice his ONLY son Issac, Abraham told his son God will provide. And God did. God is ALWAYS going to provide when we are in a storm or a hardship. Then we move on to the story of Joseph and how even when his brothers abandoned him God didn't. Even when he was in prison for 2 years God didn't abandon him. Why because it was in Joseph's lowest moments God's power was made perfect. God's strength was made incredible in Joseph's life. I would like to say why is it so hard to live like they did back in the day? Why is it so hard to trust God in the storm? I think personally it isn't hard. We get all worked up and say life is hard life sucks but truth is it does sometimes but we need to realize GOD'S LOVE IS EASY..... It is so easy we let it pass right by us. We get caught up in "our ways" and our habits. Why because we are creatures of habit. Let me ask you this who is the first person you go to when you are having trouble? Do you go to your speed dial and call the person who you know will listen or update your status about how crappy and how things didn't go "your" way on Facebook or do you ask God. It is hard but it is worth it. I look at these people and they were just ordinary people but they had something different they had a true faith in God. Faith means trusting God with NO limits NO expectations and NO if ands or buts. It means saying God I don't know how the outcome will be but I trust you. I trust you that you have a plan for my friend moving away. I trust you that though the doctor says it is bad that you remain good, I trust you that when my parents say they are splitting that you work ALL out for the GOOD in my LIFE. I think so often we base God's love off of a fairy tale or how we "think" it is suppose to be. But truth be told His love is REALITY. We think going after God is going to be "easy" and then we start to get angry and frustrated when it gets hard and sucky. But that isn't the right mind set. NO WHERE in the bible does it state "oh this life is easy after you go after God" no in fact it clearly says you will have troubles. But in our times of trouble we MUST lift our eyes unto God. Why because He KNOWS us from the inside out. He knows our troubles HE knows our fears but He is asking you to lay it all down and trust Him. TO let go and LET GOD. Because God cannot move in our lives if we are just sitting still and or moving backwards. God is for you He wants the best for your and sometimes He sends storms to test you. I mean look at Abraham God asked him to cut open HIS ONLY son to offer as a sacrifice just to test Abraham Faith and Abraham was faithful. God may not all the time calm the storm but He will ALWAYS be there with you and build up your character in the difficult seasons of life. I can boldly say without the storms I have faced I wouldn't be where I am today spiritually with God. But like I said God's grace is sufficient and his love is NEVER-ENDING. I know I want to live and learn to let go and let God. God Bless and Have a wonderful thanksgiving!

All About Love: the Season of Loving

3 years ago it was. 3 years I committed my whole life to Jesus. It is a crazy thought that it has already been 3 whole years. And God's grace has been beyond sufficient in my life. I look back and see what God has took me through and where would I be with out his MAGNIFICENT love upon my life. His belief in me has been my solid foundation. And I often think if a person didn't reach out to me from God's perspective upon my life I probably wouldn't be here today. And that got me thinking it is all about love. If that person didn't reach out in a Godly love I wouldn't be here simple and clear as that, I wouldn't know the love of Jesus and truly know He has a plan and a purpose upon my life and never to bring harm to me. I think so often why people get turned away from the church is one thing we LACK love. We lack the love of others and the love for God. IF we lack love from God there is NO way we can love others, because the thing that destroys love is pride. We "feel" we can't love others because they are "less" than us. Truth is the bible even states this everyone IS EQUAL. I was watching a movie tonight and it said " do we put a value on people "? It is funny because that is what God has been showing me in my quiet times and at church and in the book I am reading. Someone at this last encounter said " I am convinced that we can't love anyone less but we can ALWAYS love them more"\. I think this is a BIG issue that has arisen in the American church. Why do you think other countries are getting this concept and revival is happening there, miracles are happening there? It is because we have lost the main concept to LOVE. Love means giving what you can give and excepting NOTHING in return. It means laying down your thoughts your agenda to give to someone who needs love. I think so often we get caught up and say I can't love because of this and this that has happened in my life. The lack of love with God leads to the dry seasons. And so many of us I know have been having them alot lately and we end up puzzled saying why am I in ANOTHER dry season? Simple answer lack of love. But in those dry seasons are we searching for God or ignoring God. Love means laying down your agenda, what has God asked you to lay down? So often we keep our pride close and we are afraid to let it go because that means we have to give up everything that isn't of God. And during the dry season we are afraid to press in and seek God's face because we are afraid of the fire. Fire comes in the drought to burn up anything that is dry due to lack of rain. But after the fire comes RAIN comes and refreshes revives life into a place. But I strongly believe we shouldn't have dry seasons every month because if we loved God we would STOP sinning. It is so simple, it truly is we have that conscience decision to STOP sinning. To stop going to that one website, to stop listening to that one song to stop disobeying. God says love covers a MULTITUDE of sin so why do we stop loving. We stop loving when we fall into sin or get those thoughts why should I love that person they: " are titled popular, they did wrong to me, they talked behind my back, they they they....." DON'T we see it isn't about them it is about us truth is they might NEVER change... BUT we can we can love to choose to love. Love goes with forgiveness if we don't forgive the father cannot forgive us. Now what I mean is that it is about them, it us about choosing to love them. And love shouldn't be proud because if it is proud it isn't love. We shouldn't be going around telling everyone I did this for this person today but it should be done in the quiet. I think the bible is all about simplicity. Why do you think God says we are His children: Children are simple, simple minded and simple concepts. Love has to be simple it isn't complicated you just do it. And don't think twice about it because then you start thinking and dwelling upon those doubts. Love is what keeps us afloat we learn to love by God's love. But we won't ever know his love if we don't have a relationship with Him. The definition of a relationship is to get to know someone on a deeper intimate level. God's love isn't a religion but rather a life style. Loving someone for NOTHING in return. But thing great about learning to love God IS HE returns 10 fold to you. When we learn how to give love we will be able to receive love and visa versa. When we learn to receive love from God we can learn to give love to others. That is what God called us to do with our lives is love others. L-O-V-E..... Love is what can restore many broken a bruised relationships, doing the unexpected for a person with out anything in return. And I think us Americans are so caught up with instant gratification and how it can benefit us in the long run we kind put others on the back burner for a while. We got to focus upon loving because we WILL never get along with one another with out this simple concept. And seriously how hard it is to love others not that hard, yes I know it sucks laying down your pride and putting others before yourself. But when you do you will SEE significant change in your life. Love is about finding your foundation in God's love so that you can love others. It is a funny thought how Jesus died on that bloody cross yet He knew that so many people today wouldn't love Him in return BUT He still died for them. Some of His last words were do no fall into temptation... Yet how many of His disciples fell right back into sin. Many were called but few took action to walk out in that call. God CALLED us all to LOVE. It is simple... So simple yet we make it so difficult. I encourage you all to love someone this week and this month even if you don't know them at all love upon them. There are different forms of love even having loving thoughts not judging thoughts is love. And don't say you haven't judged someone with your thoughts because that is a lie. Everyone has judged even I have so many times on countless occasions. But remember LOVE covers a multitude of sins. Love God, love others love your self.

God Bless

New Destination

So often I think we get caught up in the future. What lies ahead what to plan for, what to except and so forth. I know lately I have because I will be heading off to college next year and get so caught up in the thoughts of what it will be like and what God has in-store for me. But so often we forget to focus in on the right now moment. To see what God is doing now and has done for you in the past to be content with what we have now. It is also a good thing to look back here and there and see where God has brought you in life. It is a crazy thought that nearly 3 years God rescue me from the hands of the enemy. To see how much He has brought me through and how much He has changed my heart and given me a NEW hope and a future and a NEW perspective. He has changed my life drastically and honestly I don't know where I would be with out Him. He has shown me an indescribable love over these past 3 years, that church is so much more than just a name but it is a living breathing body. That loving others comes from laying down your pride and accepting that fact that others are hurting too. To understand that His love NEVER fails NEVER gives up and NEVER runs out on me. I think so often we forget about our testimonies when we face storms in the right now moments. That all we do is run. When we should be TRUSTING God in every thing and in every situation be on our knees humbled and in prayer. And fully understand that when you faced storms in the past our God WAS there in the midst of you. I think so often too we don't like focusing on the right now moment because we might be in a storm or a season we preferably don't like, but look back hasn't your character been defined through those trials and tribulations? So shouldn't we be rejoicing and praising God for the right now moment too knowing that down the road this is going to benefit our well being? God is for us never against us so why would He put us through something if we can't handle it. The answer is He will never put us through something we cannot bear. God loves us too dearly to just through a curve ball at us. And I also think that is why we don't like focusing on the right now moments because we "feel" we won't be able to look ahead because of what is going on in our lives at the moment. When we learn to live in the present is the moment where we can grasp upon the concept that God works ALL out for the good of those who love Him. Because it is in that moment where we can say no matter what SITUATION or CIRCUMSTANCE say, yes God this is a difficult time the right now moment but it will come to pass and you are still God and you are good no matter what season I am in. Your promises remain and your love is faithful and just. So let us be a people to look not only in the past in the future but also right now.

God Bless

Come Away

There is a song by Jesus Culture called "Come Away" and it is truly the song I believe is for this season in my life right now. Not only mine but yours too. It talks about how to come away with God how it is NEVER too late to reach that calling on your life. How He has a plan so unique and divine for your life it is going to be wild, it is going to be great, and full of Jesus. WE just have to trust Him. I think so often it is hard to trust because we let sin the world come in between us and the Lord. We get so caught up in the moment or the past we forget we have a purpose and a calling. When we fall into sin we say I can't fulfill that dream God gave me when in reality we CAN! It is never to late to run after Jesus to change to succeed in this life spiritually and physically. I was talking to a friend the other day and she said I wanna change but I can't because of my past. Friends! STOP letting the past dictate who you are today! Each day is a clean slate a fresh new start. It is never to late to change to run after God's calling upon your life. He says love him with ALL your heart and He will give you the desires of your heart. ALL means ALL the broken, the past, those hurts, those joyous moments and those sorrowful moments. It won't be easy but it will be good. It will bring change in your life change is most time ALWAYS good but it is difficult. It is difficult to go beyond what you are "comfortable" in weather it be sin or your insecurities or what ever it may be and give it all to God. Why will it be worth it is because it will bring character so simply change brings character. Now you can either run from your calling or run right to it. TO run with Jesus I know I rather be doing that than running with the world. Running with the world provides limited access to the spiritually realm. It provides a MOMENTARY false joy that won't sustain you for long, Yes it may seem to be everything you ever wanted in that moment that oh so worth it feeling but it won't last forever. Where if you keep your eyes focused on Jesus his plans, his purpose, his joy is ETERNAL. It is a constant battle that keeps us thinking about our "calling" Eternal vs. Momentary. I think so often we choose the momentary choice over the eternal choice because we know we will see results right away. But God works the opposite way, not only if we wait patiently for what we don't have not only will we see it eternally but He will bless us too. We have to be a people who know the goodness of God is in every situation! God remains the only thing constant and the only good in this world. He is the solution and the resolution to every storm every problem we face in this life. Not only does he help us solve the problem in the end He will resolve it. And I think so often we say I can't handle this right now or I just wanna give up but God never gives you anything in your life that YOU cannot handle. Yes it might seem hard at the moment but again that word moment, look beyond it and look to the love and the grace of the Savior. Why do you think His name is Savior. TO SAVE US IN A TIME OF NEED. When we are tempted or fallen into sin to say God help me right now because I messed up and you know what He will do He will come down and say, :son/daughter it is ok I forgive you!, You are worth my love and I still love you, you are so precious and amazing, I see your struggles I see your pain but come abide in my love and grace.

WE have to fully realize that GOD IS GOOD. He is the only thing good in this broken world. To start to abide in his truth and his love. It is about accepting the love from the father. When we learn to accept we can learn to give. If we don't accept it first how then can we minister to other. To learn we ARE forgiven, redeemed and loved. Let us be a people who know how to accept his love. And learn it is NEVER ever to late to run after Him, it is a choice remember to wake up every day with the mind set it is a new day and God will do wonders in my life today.

I hope this made semi sense lol I know it is a bunch of jumble mess haha.

Well God Bless :)

Potential in the Moment

So I know I never talk about "normal life" on my blogs but today was most certainly not normal. After school I got into a car accident today. It was so scary and I am just lucky God has grace on my life. It was interesting when I hit the car I felt a hand push me back I know that was the hand of God. Not only that but when I got out I heard Him saying it will all be alright and everything is going to work out for my good. And everything is so far. I am ok, I am alive and I am blessed. Because God is good, He does have a plan and purpose in my life. Maybe spiritually speaking we need sometimes a "fender bender" in our lives to wake us up. To see that we have to live each moment to the fullest to say I am going to do the right choice instead of what my flesh wants. I know this might sound twisted but bear with me what would have happened if I got critically injured or died today? Would I have met my calling on this earth? I am blessed beyond measures that my God protected me today. It shows that He does have a specific purpose in my life (Jeremiah 29:11). I think so often we don't realize what can happen in one day. We think it is just going to be a normal day then something happens. And I am not talking about an actual "fender bender" to wake you up spiritually but what if something in our heart crash? We have to learn to not only live a Christian "life" every Sunday but every day of the week. To stand for what WE believe in and to have that holy standard, not because of a have to, but rather a want to. Because the moment it becomes a have to: spend time with Jesus, Pray, Tithe, is when we lose sight of truly how God our God is and how sweet and satisfying his presence is. When we grasp onto this concept others will then see it. This generation doesn't need a bible thrown at them, they need to see living proof in the pudding. I now am blessed to say God has given me part of my testimony with what happened today. I can now say that yeah that happened and some might say it is life, but I say it is God. Because He already knew that was going to happen today and He is in control. And yet again He is showing me trust, because I wanted a car so bad. I finally got one a couple weeks ago ( a blessing from God ) and not even having it for 2 weeks it got totaled. But that is ok BECAUSE GOD IS IN CONTROL, I think He is showing me this relationship is based upon 2 main points. 1. Accepting His Love 2. TRUST. HEAR me out is is all about TRUST. Because with out trust we have no foundation and with no foundation we have no faith and no faith means no love. I am confident to say that we need to throw all the past "people" that have hurt us, left us ect. And look to God. We give him the label of whatever hurt/shame we are carrying on our backs. We have to learn to TRUST him because He knows what days are planned out for us what will happen 5 minutes from now or 5 years from now. He gives us these "fender benders" to show us how good his power can work, how he can make something the enemy intended for evil and make into his good. What can I say except we are the clay marred in his hands. He will work every crack, every hole, every bump in our lives perfect and smooth. We just have to trust, because if we don't trust we won't give God our full heart, because if we still have insecurities it will be so hard to let go. And when we do let go God will do amazing wonders. God is good that is all I have to say I guess at the end of this crazy day. He is the only ABSOLUTE GOOD thing on this earth. And live each moment to the fullest don't ever live with regrets because you never know when your moment is up.

God Bless

From the Inside- Out

So tonight at work I was cleaning and I love just spending time with Jesus while I am at work. Anyways I was cleaning the sinks in the bathroom and He gave me this coolest analogy. That something won't get clean if you just spray cleaner on it, you have to actually put manual labor into get the dirt off. The cleaner is suppose to help the dirt come off but if you don't help the chemicals cut deep then they just sit on top of the gunk. Then God told me this, it is the exact same with God's love on our hearts. Lets face it our hearts are dirty, sinful, unclean. The only solution is for the blood of Jesus for our hearts to be coated in. But what if there is a little more to being a "christian" than just having our hearts coated in his blood? I believe there is more, we have to work at making our hearts pure and clean again, we cannot just let this love sit there and think it is going to take all the gunk, crap, sin out of our lives if we just sit and do nothing. God gives us His love as a gift what we need to do with it is learn to apply it to our lives and get that gunk off our hearts. To say God I am tired of this sin in my life help me learn to get rid of it. To get humbled before God and say I need help, I need you to be that wash rag in my life to help get the dirt and scum off. The more we learn to rely upon God and His help on cleaning us up the more we will learn to trust him. Because I think we get this mindset saying God I don't want help cleaning my heart up because I am scared what you might see in there, what lies I have kept hidden and on and on... But truth be told GOD ALREADY KNOWS what is in your heart. It hurts him to see his children living with fear, past regrets, and deep hidden parts of our heart. He wants us to have it clean because it is a process that starts from the inside out, if we can get our hearts clean, then our mind will be clean then our thoughts will be clean and eventually move on the outside where people can see, that they changed, different, holy. I want my heart to be clean I am tired of just say I am Christian because Christ's blood covers me I want it to be more I want to be clean, I want my heart to be pure. Matthew 5:8~Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God. When we let God clean our hearts we shall see amazing wonders and miracles happen in our lives but not only our others around us. I know I am ready for purity and to be clean of sin. So God do your will in me...

God Bless

Behind Stone Walls

Church most of you go to one, whether it is a Sunday service or a Wednesday service or both. Well usually the church service is in a building right? And we sometimes just get into the "motions" of things on church days we often say just another church service. Well to be honest walls don't make up the church, it is the people. We all look at that new person in the back or question why isn't that person worshiping like me? We get caught up in our momentary thoughts about others who enter church wearing those short shorts. But why are we looking at them let alone, thinking about our thoughts in our heads about those people? Because they are our family. Our heaven bound family. We so often get caught up in what we know church looks like or the presence of God is suppose to "feel" like that we forget the definition of love of a Godly love. To love our brothers and sisters as Christ would have. We all go to church to encounter the love of Jesus and love on our church family, we shouldn't go just because someone else goes there, or we feel we have to because that is the right "Christian" thing to do. We should go to learn how to be a family, even when we struggle with sin to know that we can go to church and feel accepted and loved and supported when we are struggling. I mean isn't that what Jesus would have done? He wouldn't reject someone for being honest. I think so often in the church ( I have done this ) we put on a "happy" mask and when the pastor asks does any one need prayer, we feed ourselves that lie oh I am perfectly fine I don't need any prayers at the moment, even though after church you go home get into a fight with your family, go to that familiar website and ect... We think I just come to church to say I know Jesus. But if we are called to be a family with God as our father why don't we show our true colors at church, why don't we have the guts to admit what we are struggling with and seek help? We all have dealt with this lie, I cannot tell because I am ashamed, or how would they know what I am dealing with. I think everyone has dealt with sin and we all have screwed up at some point but God's love is still sufficient and if church is suppose to be the place where we can encounter God's love then why do we hide in our turtle shells of a "religious" mind set. I think if the body of Christ each Sunday said I need help I am struggling with this, truth be told I think we would have more support than ever, if we lay down our high pride picket fences and say, NO this is my sister or brother in Christ and if they are struggling the least I can do is pray for them and help them see the God I have seen in my "struggles". The more we learn to love our family I also think the less people we will see "leave" the church, because they didn't find that satisfaction with the love. Don't we get it the church isn't about the best worship team, or the coolest sound equipment, or even how many people can you cram in the building it is all about love. God is love so if we love then we are showing the people who God is. We weren't called to just sit in a chair and listen and look at our watch and think "hmm I wonder what is for lunch" no we were called to love. Love our heaven bound family, support them and reassurance them when faith gets a little cloudy. To see beyond that "religious" mindset. I know God is doing an incredible work in me lately and this city and to the church. I want to just love people and let the love of God come and touch our hearts. So I am going to challenge you to try something new this week at church, go sit with someone you have never met and get to know them.

God Bless

A Starry Gaze

Lately for the past 3 night I have been going out on my porch and just worshiping under the stars, asking God to speak to me. Because I honestly believe there is something so divine and so unique about worshiping out side in stead of being contained. I asked God tonight what he wanted to talk to me about and he said his fatherly figure in my life. We all have fathers, weather they are in our lives or have passed on or who is are perfect "fairy-tale" of a dad nothing will ever compare to the kind of father our God is. God has been speaking to me lately that he is my heavenly papa. He is the one that sees me as his daughter. He said to me tonight that He is proud of me, that no matter what I do his love won't ever change. Do we get that picture HIS LOVE WON'T EVER CHANGE no matter what we do, his love won't change. And that is a promise and God has never broken any of His promises. I think so often we say but God our earthly father gets so enraged when we screw up that "he" holds it above my head till I can finally earn his love again. It is such a twisted mindset to look at our God with that view. Because I know I sure have done it and still will probably struggle with it to not compare my earthly father figure to my heavenly one. My heavenly father says He will never harm me or forsake and never abandon me. He says His grace and His mercies are new each morning, He says I am worth HIS son dying for me. He is up in heaven telling everyone that He is pleased with me that I don't have to work to get to a certain level with His love, He isn't ever going to tell me oh that was good but you can do better. He is proud, and that makes my heart smile to know that I can be who I am and He will except me for that, that I don't have to have it all together, I don't have to be perfect but I can be myself. I know that God is that same way with all of you, He isn't asking for you to be perfect, isn't asking for us to have it all together but to seek him fully with no questions just a child like faith. To just trust him because ALL of our days are ORDAINED in front of Him, that He is in control and we are not. To cry out to Him and truly say God I need you. He will embrace you like a Papa. He won't ever let go or tell you to stop talking but rather He says won't you talk to me more? This season I am going through has been about trust and now seeing God as my heavenly father, there are times where he is a lover, a friend, a standard but right now He is my father. He will sustain me with His love. And to know that His love is enough His Love is my portion it is all I need. All I need is Him and my soul will be satisfied. And to be honest to fully grasp the concept that His love isn't some kind of fairy tale but a truth. A solid unshakable truth that covers us from head to foot , and is so deep and wide. That nothing will ever be able to separate us from His great love. His fatherly love. His love for all His children young or old. And what the cool thing is, is He has such a Hope and passion for us and in us. He longs for us to seek His face, longs for us to call upon Him for when we call He will answer, never will you get the voice mail of God. He is always there and He won't ever leave us or forsake. I am blessed to know He is showing me this season and I am excited to where He is going to take me next.

God Bless

Strength, Hope and Thoughts

Strong, steadfast, preserve, endure, and on and on it goes. Those are all word we have heard at some point in life, weather it us running a race and the coach says keep going you got it, or when life gets rough there is always that one person who say you can find the strength to see beyond this situation. But what about what Jesus is saying? I know every day He is telling us that we have the strength to rise above and live up to his standard. Lately he has been telling me to rely upon his strength and only what he thinks. Because really it does only matter what he thinks and if we actually listened to what He says we wouldn't find ourselves in sin. We would actually love that person that just cut us off in traffic, we would look in the mirror and boldly say I am beautiful because God created me and He makes no flaws in his creations. And depression and sadness won't over take us because if God says we will find strength to rise upon the wings of eagles He means that. Over ANY SITUATION to find his strength and rise above it. Now that is way easier said than done. But to rely on God and say YOU are my strength and in you I find peace and hope. I was reading through psalms tonight and many verse go along the line of " God under your wings I find refuge, in you I find my strength" It is in Him we will find our strength not part of Him, not once a week but In His presence every day, every hour we will find our strength through his amazing power and love. I want to have a heart like David (in psalms) to rise above my situations my pain and say God you are bigger than this, you are my portion my life and my hope. To realize that He won't ever leave us or abandon us but fully support us through everything. Every failure and every success. I know I don't want to have my strength on something that in the end might fail me, Jesus will never fail me it says that in the bible so why not just let Him be my strength in the times of trouble. Because we cannot and will never be able to do anything in our "own" strength, and if we look at it that way that is the spirit of pride hate to break it to you but we all have pride issues. It is only through Jesus and His STRENGTH that we will be able to overcome and make the right choice when temptation is sitting right in front of us. Strength that is what I long for and our God is so good he says asks and you shall receive. So I don't know about you but I am so ready to rely upon God's strength for the situations that look troubling to my physical eyes but hope rising for my faith eyes.

God Bless

7 years

7 is suppose to be a number of the bible right? Well I am now believing that too for my life. 7 years is how long I have lived in Washington, the longest my family has ever stayed in one place. I look back and I see what God has taken me through: He has seen my family go through a divorce, me go through hell and back, myself trying to take my life more than once, the joy, the sorrow, the hope, me coming to breakthrough and getting saved, me getting baptized, the friends I have made and lost, my dad keeping his job for so long, and a bunch of other stuff. I think God put me here in the Tri Cities for 7 years for a very specific reason. I look back and often ponder my thoughts what if we didn't move from Colorado to here, what if God didn't take me to this state would I have heard His calling apon my life? To go to Life Pacific College after I graduate and go on missions across the world? To fully realize that God has a plan for me here is incredible because sometimes I do ask God why am I in this city? But then I understand He wanted me for a reason. I realized how many friends I have been truly blessed with and also with a job and an amazing youth group that isn't just another church but my second family. Why am I talking about the past 7 years well because today I got the news my dad was guaranteed his job up till Sept 30th. After that it is all up in the air. I haven't heard that news since my 4th grade year in Colorado. I was kinda shocked when I heard the news, I asked God why right now? In the midst of everything else that is going on why? But then I heard His still voice saying TRUST. Maybe it is time for us to pack up and move again maybe God has something bigger and better out there. But it is hard when you are comfortable with where you are. But that isn't what faith is about it is about trusting God when you cannot see in front of you. I thought this season was just going to be about getting rid of junk in my heart but maybe it is more. Maybe God wants to uproot the things I have learned here and plant me in a different location to impact the lives of others. Maybe I can bring the love I have experienced here and give it to others who don't know this love of Jesus. To fully say I am yours God do your will. I know if it wasn't for moving here I honestly don't think I would have known the love of my heavenly Papa like I do today. I don't think I would have ever seen the miracles I saw and most certainly not have a strong relationship with Jesus. I am so nervous to see where God is going to take us next but if He keeps us here or moves us I will trust Him. Because He knows what is coming next and knows what is the next chapter in my life. Like I wrote last night I do believe this is a season of trust, nothing less and nothing more than just trusting Jesus. I know it will be good and some how in some way that I cannot even describe in the end He will WORK it ALL out for His glory and to my benefits. I think this is also a test to see if I am strong as I "say" to say God you are in control and I am not. Where ever I go though I do know one thing for sure the presence of Jesus will never leave me or forsake me. So all I have to say is I am ready and this shall be an adventure.

God Bless

Empty but Full

I am typing this blog honestly having no idea where this is coming from. I am so tired of not being full. Full of Jesus that is to fully know him and understand him. Because honestly you cannot be semi full of the Jesus and Semi full of the world it doesn't work that way. You cannot desire Jesus yet still run to that "comfort" you know in the world when you don't "feel" you are receiving fully from Jesus. I know I am so sick of having a void in my heart something I am always trying to fill in my heart. Where the real question should be where am I lacking putting my time and effort into trusting God. In my interns class today my Pastor asked us to write down if we could have anything spiritually what would it be I wrote down this" if I could have anything spiritually it would have to be to trust God fully no second thoughts or questions just trust." I do that is the desire of my heart is to trust God and to know that it is all going to be ok. I keep telling myself that but it is so hard to fully take heart and say NO my God is bigger than this. I am so tired of taking one big spiritual step forward then a slip back wards. I ask my self why am I looking at this "worldly" object isn't my God enough for me. WE all hear those songs that go you satisfy my soul I want to fully know that what it means to be 110% satisfied. I know at one point I was and somehow it has diminished a little but I shouldn't let the storms affect my relationship, these past 3 years I have been save that is my life verse Hebrews 12:1-2 to preserve but maybe that isn't enough anymore, ya my heart might be preserving but if my soul and mind do not work in a trinity nothing can happen I cannot advance forward or go its like I am stuck. But God doesn't want me to be stuck but to keep going and to hear His voice, even though yeah I might not like it all the time but it will be worth it. I just want Jesus. I want Him to fill that void back up in me. To not look to the things of this world anymore to fill when I am empty. Because the only thing that should be filling me is Jesus's love. To rely on Him when I am feeling empty for He is my portion and He will fill my cup. God is doing something great in this season in my life and I think it is all about trust...


God Bless

Song of The Seasons

I have been thinking lately about stuff... My future, my tomorrow, my past and etc. It was exactly a year ago that I was struggling with one of my most toughest seasons of my life. It was dealing with family issues beyond my hands. And at the time I never thought I would be strong and pull through but it wasn't through my strength it was all through God's strength it often surprises me at the moment I am telling God this life is too hard he is so faithful to pull me through. I often thought in the past there would be no way to see the other side of this situation but there is always a blue sky behind the storm clouds. It is funny to think that I wouldn't have made it through my situation last year but here I am now. GOD is good that is all I can think of tonight. He has helped me out so much to see NEW perspective when I have lost my "physical vision" He has given me His eyes to see a SPIRITUAL vision. To come to realize it I cannot wait to see what God is going to take me through next. And even if a storm comes or a calm season I know He will be there by my side every step of the way, to guide, protect and love me. I know I have nothing with out Him in my life, I am nothing with out Him. He is my everything ya sometimes I get side track and don't make right decisions but I am learning to trust Him with everything for He knows the plans for me ( Jeremiah 29:11 ) He is going to make His light shine through me. And I want Him to become everything in me because honestly we might be the only Jesus some people will ever see in this world so why be selfish and live for our selves. I know this is going to be an exciting season and so worth it too. I know I wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for the loving grace of my Jesus. So basically all I can say is God have YOUR way in me. I hope this encouraged you some how. :)

God Bless

Hearing Check

Our God is so good, I cannot say that enough there are truly no words to describe just how good He is. Today in church the Pastor was talking about how God listen's to us. And over and over I have heard that but today it really sunk in. MY GOD listens to me! When I pray to Him, talk to Him it just isn't empty words floating in mid air. But He listens to me and understands me and loves it when He can hear my voice and it is the same way for you too! That our God isn't like any earthly emotion, He isn't going to tune us out when He gets bored with us, He isn't going to tell us to shut up if we get "annoying" but rather He gets all giddy when He hears our voice. It hurts Him when we don't talk to Him, usually when we don't talk to Him because something begins to separate us from Him. We take even one second to realize that something better is out there than God. God really does hate sin. Why because sin separates us from relationships. It separates us from God. Being separate from God we begin to get this twisted mind set that the more we sin the more we have to hid from God which then leads to us not talking to Him as often. We get caught up in this cycle of repetition of old sin, and old habits. Which often leads to us getting all hyped up about God after we get freed then pleading and crying out to Him when we fall hard again. So if our God loves us so much and wants to listen to us why do we put up that fence when we do sin, what makes us stop talking to God? He isn't just a thought in our heads HE IS GOD He knows us He knows our thoughts so why is it so hard to talk to him? When we are struggling with an issue, when we don't know what to say, when we just need a friend? I know I don't want my relationship with God to ever get boring and it shouldn't ever. I want it to be new and fresh each day! He is a funny God I know He has His serious moments but the more we spend time with Him the more we can learn His characteristics. The more we know about that the more we can share with other people about who God truly is. And all it takes is one small baby step of saying God what do you want to talk to me about right now. And He will show up yeah it might not be something you want to talk about or bring up but God only brings out the gunk so He can bring in the good. Lets stop being a chicken to talk to Him because when we call He will answer and He loves hearing us as His children call unto Him as a papa. Well I guess that Is all I have to say about that. I hope this has encouraged you and I hope you have a fabulous week.


God Bless

Heart to Heart

Well to start off this blog tonight I honestly don't know where to begin, I have noticed I am blogging alot lately but this blog isn't about me it is about what God is doing in me. I was at my summer interns today and we had a guest speaker and well the story goes we all had a paper heart and he tore his apart when he was telling us his testimony and at the end it was barely anything and well how much was left wasn't appealing to even give away. And metaphorically the paper heart represented out true hearts. And it got me pondering this thought how much of my heart am I giving God? I mean honestly can you say you are giving God right now 100% of your heart because I am not that is for sure. I think we get scared to give God OUR full attention our FULL trust our full EVERYTHING. We bring up the past situations where we have felt abandoned, lonely, mistreated, broken trust, abused, lied to... etc..... WE say but God you don't know how " I felt" in that moment in that situation... Actually he does He gave me the revelation tonight that truth be told I have never been alone. Not once or ever will I be alone. Lately my past has been coming up and I was wondering " God what are you trying to tell me" I thought I had dealt with my past but truth be told, God convicted me tonight and I had been plastering my past up with the hidden lies like I asked for forgiveness, I asked God to heal me before. But I hid my past so much that I did face to face deal with the issue it is the love of God that wants to heal it. God doesn't bring up the past for me to hurt but to rather say I am healing you redeeming you and changing you. Just when you think you cannot "heart change" any more God reveals something to you, you didn't know you buried in the depths of your soul. I think we often forget about the "past" because we lie to ourselves that "it is not that big of a deal, oh it can wait, I will wait for some one to prayer over me" and on and on an on. I don't want my past my hurt those "burdens" I have been unsuspectingly carrying around to stop me from fully experiencing the presence of the Lord. God knows us better than we know ourselves, He knows every strand of hair on our head He sees when we rise and fall. So why do we give him partial of our hearts when He knows what we have been through? What keeps us from thinking about Him every moment of the day? What is stopping us? Yes we have all been hurt, all have gunk we let no one see but why can't we just give God are full hearts weather gunk or black or stone or semi fallen apart. He can handle it because when we hand him a broken, bruised heart He loves us so much He will heal it back to a NEW creation. I think our heart are like a puzzle we try so hard to put the wrong pieces together just to get the job "done" we don't realize it is going to take more work to undo a mistake than rather taking time and putting it carefully together. Why do we put off so much when God brings up a heart issue " stop listening to that music, stop watching that show" He says that to us because He loves us. I know I don't want to deal with junk buried for years when I am 30 if God is bringing it up to me right now. I mean He brings up the junk the ugly and He makes it beautiful. But it also takes time. Like a puzzle you cannot do a 9000 piece jigsaw puzzle in 5 minutes neither can God mend your heart back together over night. It is going to take time. It is going to first start with the step do you trust God. Because if you start the healing process without trust, truth be told ( this has happened to me ) you will start off sky high then crash hard. With out trust there is no foundation of faith. Oh but yes: maybe your earthly father abused you, oh yes your experience in God's presence doesn't look like Billy Grahams the list goes on... So we put a wall up a say can't let you go beyond what I know about " TRUST" well to be frank we don't know what trust is. I don't that is a for sure one. To trust God with our hearts can only go one way that is healing, molding and rewarding. God is LOVE... So if we are not trusting Him because we have never known love, well God is Love simple as that. He sent His SON to die for us so WE could in return: love him but we are obviously human and we take that love and crumple it on the ground like a cheesy love note from a creeper guy. I think we get afraid to let God fully in our heart to reconstruct what needs to be reconstructed, because no one is perfect EVERY Single person was born into sin nature so there is not a possible way that you can say, well I am good nothing needs to be worked on in my heart, well what about that lady you flipped off while driving today, what about that thought you thought, none of us are perfect I know I am not. The next step is accepting the love, to be humble and say God you are the only thing I NEED in this life. To truly say your presence is enough for me. Your goodness is enough to sustain me in this life, I sometimes think what it would be like to be homeless, I have seen homeless people that love Jesus and think wow after losing everything you can still look to God and say that you love him? They know though that yeah they might have lost everything but the one thing they didn't lose was Jesus, because like earlier I was saying that our God will never leave us or forsake us, but it is rather us that turns our backs on him. To lay down our prideful picket fence that is "guarding" our heart and rather learn to let Jesus guard our hearts. To accept the fact that we all have screwed up but Jesus hasn't His love is PERFECT. To know, that yeah we are human but God says in Psalm 91 that we can find REFUGE UNDER him. WE don't have to work for His love, it isn't about a popularity contest but rather coming as we are. The last step I think is to keep the relationship up, once God does something incredible in your heart I think we get "emotionally" high off it for a while then we forget about it. We continue to live in sin and then eventually begin to build up hidden areas again. And then look we are back to square one. We gotta to learn that once God does something in us we need to try to refill what God has filled us with, with something that looks "better" at the moment than the presence of the Lord. I know I don't want to give the lord half of my heart or only what I feel like giving him, but rather to give him my all weather it is on a good day or a bad day. Because only GOD can make two things the dark turn to lovely and also make EVERYTHING work out for the good. I really hope this inspired you tonight! And if you are wondering how to encounter God simple step get on your knees and pray to Him, just say God I am here take me as I am.

God Bless

Hope Unseen

Unseen: we often link that word with unreal, impossible, fake and on and on. I think you get the picture but what about when we say a Hope Unseen what is the first thought that comes in your mind? I know for me it sounds like an oxymoron. Like shouldn't hope be visible at least the results? Sometimes we get so caught up in the after results actions we lose the heart action. Nothing can ever start with out a passion and and a desire. It has to start from the inside out though. You know we cannot see our hearts but we can see and feel the aftermath, beating etc. Maybe that is the same way with hope we can feel it but won't ever physically see but rather spiritually see it. TO see beyond our "natural" eyes and look through our heavenly eyes. To see through every situation every trial and tribulation that it is building us up in some way some form some how. Hope is dependent on faith with out faith you have nothing. For it says in the bible that we WALK by FAITH and never by SIGHT so shouldn't the same thing be for hope. To walk by faith and say God I don't know what tomorrow brings, I don't know what 2 years hold for me but it will work out for my good and to rely on that hope and the strength HE gives us each day. He doesn't just give it to us for it to sit in a shelf of our " religious mindset" but to fully RELY on that hope He has given us to trust that when He says in every situation He will work it out He means that. No matter how dark the day might look in our natural eyes our spiritual eyes can see past that and say that even dark situations are light to the lord ( some where in psalms ). Trust comes from Hope comes from Faith and Faith Comes from Jesus. So sometimes when you hear Hope Unseen lets think of not dead but alive because if it all goes back to Jesus we know that He isn't dead but ALIVE! So Unseen doesn't mean its not real or fake but alive and living and breathing in us and through us. I hope this inspired you a little bit and hoped it made sense.

God Bless

As Far as The Eye Can See

We all have asked this question before: why is this happening to me... Why it is such a little word but can take over an entire mindset if we don't watch it carefully. We often ask God the same question: God WHY are you doing this to me, WHY why WHY WHY WHY..... We get caught up in the moment and the emotions and say what is the use of trying or I don't get "why" God is taking me through this but it is too "hard" so I am going to give up. Instead of asking God why He is taking me through a season as of starting tonight of asking Him how, How is God going to work this out for His good in my life. How is He going to take control in this situation where I cannot see the sun because the clouds are in the way. But taking a new level of hope and saying God I may not know why this is happening but How would you handle this situation with your grace, love and mercy. I have been dealing with an issue with God lately learning to rely only upon his timing. I desire some things so bad but when God told me to wait for them, it is a tough season to walk through. But then God brings me to the verse Romans 8:28 This we know that God works ALL out for the good of those who love him and have been called according to HIS purpose. If that is in the bible then it is truth, plain and simple to the point. He will WORK EVERYTHING out for the good no matter what kind of situation it is, He is in control he knows every day that is ahead of us ( Psalms 139 ) so why do we keep asking God WHY this certain situation keeps arising keeps occurring in our lives if He already knows the end result? Why don't we start asking him HOW this certain situation is going to benefit, uplift us and refine our character? When we start looking through Heaven's eyes no longer will we desire the useless things of this world; sin and on and on.... I think the reason why we look into asking God why is because we find reassurance in knowing that we can sit and cry for a moment or a while, but I know God had bigger plans in store He wants us rather to sit and soak up self pity to leap forth and say that my God is building me up to be stronger. To be bold and say God this season in my life might be hard for the moment, but to say I trust you and this situation is building me up for MY Benefit. God also said in the Bible never would he test us beyond what we can bear those "WHY seasons" are a tester of how strong your faith actually is and if you are willing to pursue God when it is the dry season and the saturated season. But it is through those seasons that when you look to God and say HOW can you use me more, or HOW can I love you more ect. Your faith will grow stronger, the more our faith grows the more we will see Jesus in our daily lives. Our God is a good God and will never harm us or forsake us. We need to be a people who know how to say How God. Show me because I cannot do this alone in my own strength. So lets turn that "WHY" into a How :)

God Bless

Change for The Better???

Change.... It seems that is always happening in my life right now. I have been thinking about life and my friendships. Over the past few years I have become friends with some of the most amazing people I could ever ask for in my life. It has come almost to that milestone in the journey where they go off to college. I am bittersweet about this happening. I am so stoked to know they are following the voice of God yet scared to face a year alone here. But as I was contemplating these thoughts tonight God spoke to me. That it is all going to be ok. Because He told me tonight in this next year that I will get to reach out to the younger generation coming into my life. Because I think about it and that's what my friends did for me. I keep replaying the last 3 years of my high school experience. How freshman year I was on the urge of taking my own life to then meeting an amazing man of God his name was Gary who brought me to realize that my life was worth something, to bringing me to the church which that church has stood with me through so many storms to which brought me to knowing Jennae. Which coincidentally brought me to falling head over heels with Jesus. Yeah the boat ride hasn't been completely smooth but has been amazing. I was just thinking about how many encounters and Breakthrough and prayer meetings these two amazing people been through with me. It is a crazy thought that they will be going off to college soon and a part of me doesn't really want to say goodbye because they have been involved in the spiritual walk with me since I have been saved but in another way I hear the Lord telling me it is my time to step up and reach out to the incoming freshman and to let them know the Jesus that has drastically changed my life. I know this next season is going to be amazing I know that if the Lord has stood by my side for the past 3 years I know that no matter what happens this next year he is going to be with me. To know the reality is my friends won't be here but God will and if he moved these past 3 years he is MOST certainly going to move this next year. We have all heard this saying so many times "sometimes change is good" it is true so true. Because with out change we wouldn't have character and with out character we wouldn't have perspective and you get the picture. But maybe that is so true this next season when I thought all my character changing was done God shows up and says I am not done yet ;) Because of his love he won't ever stop working in me and I KNOW he has done incredible things and will continue I was thinking you know what would have happened if I didn't move to Washington? What if I stayed in Colorado then honestly I would have never met my friends, never been introduced to Breakthrough and probably wouldn't be saved and seen his love alive and active in my life. It ceases to amaze me that God knew I would move out here He knew I would end up with him and He knew that I would be writting this blog right now. But to also know no matter what tomorrow holds my God will be right there with me. And to know that soon my day will come to pursue the call upon my life but until then to serve one another in love because you never know whose life you could change when you show God's love. So blessings to Gary and Jennae thank you for all you have done you truely have blessed me :)

God Bless

One Chance at This

So it has been on my heart lately to really think about life. And what would happen if tomorrow would be your last day? We don't know when our last day is up we don't know when God will call us finally home. We hear all these songs about living your life to the fullest with NO regrets. But honestly how often do we fully take that to heart? It is so easy to do saying oh yeah me I am living my life to the fullest. Weather you give your money to a charity or help a homeless person, yeah it might be good deeds but to tell you the truth Good works won't get you into heaven. It is your heart behind those deeds. I don't want my life to be average I have decided that I am tired of living to the "normal" christian standard... It is time to go ABOVE and BEYOND what church defines as a "Christian" I am so sick of being caught up in sin and sitting on my butt doing nothing while watching, listening to how our "economy" is falling. I want to do something. I want to live my life to the fullest each day while having Jesus right by my side. I want to show my faith to others instead of hiding in it a clay bowl. I want to show people that you can truly live each day with the maximum potential that awaits you. Because honestly I don't think I would be satisfied if I died tomorrow I want to lead others to know this amazing Jesus I know. Sometimes in a world so dark as ours today we might be the only Jesus to people they will ever see. Sometimes when I am at work I think... What people will I see in heaven? I try to be my joyful self at work to let people know you don't have to be cranky all the time. I want others to see and fall in love with the Jesus I fell in love with. A time is coming where people are going to get their faith tested. Where some people are going to question who their God is but in times like these I know if you stand firm with Jesus he will come and bless you. He challenges your faith daily and ask's you to serve him with your full heart mind and soul. So many times we want to live each day to its fullest but choose often to ignore that call upon our lives. We say " oh God if that is really you then you will do this" Why Should we question what He is saying to us? I know I am getting so hungry and back in the swing of things to see Miracles happen I want to see God's power breakthrough to see heaven and earth collide. It just awes me how some people say there is no God. To just look at the darkened night sky and to see the stars and say nothing more nothing less. But to rather look up at the sky and ask did I live my full potential today? Because truth be told the more we get into the Sin nature the more we fall from God. The more we fall the more distance comes between us and His vision. Now don't get me wrong but His grace is sufficient for you. I know recently I have been struggling with me and boys. To not rely on a relationship or give any attention to being in a relationship but to focus my all on God and trust him. Because I noticed the more attention I gave to an earthly thing the more my attention got distracted from heaven. The reason we were created is to Love God and to be loved by him. WE cannot do that if we are distracted you cannot do both you cannot Be in Sin and Be in Heaven and visa versa. WE need to be a people who realize what we were meant to live for. To give Glory to God. It is so easy to say but so hard to do. It is hard when we say the "earthly" things look more compromising then the faith. Because it is easy to touch money, rewards, but hard to touch God. But it isn't about touching God it is about trusting God. Simple as that. Because the more we trust God the more we will hear from God. The more we hear from God the more we will see heaven come down to earth. The more our lives will be lived to the fullest because the more we have God in our lives than on 2 days a week. We need to realize that our God is God and the more we are in tune with him the more out pour will happen in the city and in the world. And when we listen to the voice of God someone's life could be dramatically changed. To know that when we give our fullest to Him he will bless us in ways so unimaginable. I am so excited to see what this next season has in-store for me and to see His power and His vision come to life inside of me. To say truly what am I living for and to answer Jesus, with no regrets. It is time for a generation to abide fully in the Father and He will fully abide in us. I want to make a difference and I am tired of "normal" being my label because I know I am a daughter of the most high and Heaven WILL collide with Earth...

God Bless

To Use or To Lose

Lets be honest, we have all used someone as a "friend" when we needed something at, least once in our lives right? Weather it was befriending that kid for a piece of gum or something more. Well let me ask you this how many times have you used God as "friend" just so you could get his help with a certain situation? I am being honest I know I have multiple times and sometimes I don't realize it but most of the time I do. Because being human I make mistakes too. And I use God when I need him. But sometimes don't maintain the relationship. I say when life is at the highest of times oh yes I love God yet I am still wrapped up some in the world and say I got this God. Yet when disaster strikes I am crying out and yearning for His attention and his help. The question I often ask myself is why am I not seeking his attention 24/7. He is God after all He isn't human and won't ever be, which means He won't ever act like a human. He is God it shouldn't have to be based off of a feeling by saying I am mad today I don't feel like giving God my attention or I am happy today I will worship Him today. It is about serving Him on a daily basis with your own will. God didn't make us to be caught up in the motions but rather He made us to live with His divine purpose and His heart in us. He created us to serve Him and to know Him more. But we cannot know Him more if we don't have a relationship with Him. Let me ask you this do you remember that kids name in middle school you asked gum for prolly not. It goes the same way with our God. WE cannot get to know Him if we don't put forth effort to understand His heart more. Where we pick up our feet and realize we NEED him on a daily basis not just every Sunday or every time a severe storm hits us. WE gotta embrace that our God is good and He is full of love. I think so many times the "church" says this is how your relationship with God is suppose to look. We get so caught up in that it becomes a religious thing. And soon after we promised God we would spend 30 min with Him daily, each day it starts to get shorter and shorter. We need to realize that HE IS GOD and HE IS WORTHY. Its not because of what we feel or what our day was like but it is because He is our Father, Maker, Healer, Provider, and so much more. Let us stop being distracted with the things of earth because they shall perish but let us focus on the HEAVEN BOUND because those are the things that will last for Eternity. Sometimes after a long dry season with the Lord we don't know how to pick ourselves back up, well here is a thought maybe you don't need to pick yourself up maybe this is a season of letting the Lord carry you. There is no better way of getting to know him than through the embrace of His love. The more you seek the Lord the more you will find him... It is like any other relationship you have to talk to the person and engage conversations to have a healthy relationship. Getting to know God more doesn't require you to pray for 5 hours straight with complete silence. It means just talking to God about whatever, like how the sun is beautiful today or your meals or just random stuff. God isn't boxed inside the church He doesn't just show up on Sundays and makes you suffer for the rest of the 6 days with out Him... NO It clearly states in the bible that Our God will never leave us or forsake us. So since this is true why do we not accept the fact that God is with us in our work, in our homes and in our cars. Sometimes we need to realize how much God means in our lives. I know with out Him in my life I would probably not be here today. It takes time though for a relationship with God. No relationship will happen over night. God wants this relationship for a life time though. He wants your undivided attention why? SO HE can bless you with the things of heaven, the fruits of the spirit. The more we PUT IN to Him the more blessings HE Will OUT POUR onto us. Our God isn't just that "friend" He is God and it is time we realize what are the things in my life I am giving my most attention too at the time FACEBOOK, Texting, TV, ect. Give to God and you shall receive abundantly. Give Him your attention and your time and He will bless you. And by time it doesn't have to be a whole 6 hours because God sees your motives behind ALL our your actions. He knows your rising and your leaving He knows every single thought. So why don't we start giving God our everything not because we have to our, because we are "required to" but rather because we want to get to know God more.

God Bless

A Love So Unconditional

Love what do we define it as? Some people say I love the ocean, I love this sandwich but what about when it comes to us saying I love Jesus? We use the term love so much in this day in age I think we have forgotten what it means when we say we love Jesus. When you love something you give your time and passion to it no matter what it is, whether it be a relationship a hobby or just everyday. So much we say I love you Jesus but I am too busy to spend even 30 minutes with you a day. It is funny how we can watch our favorite TV show we "love" yet when it comes to soaking up some Jesus time in the Word we say oh I am too tired or oh I have to check my Facebook for the thousand time. It has be drawn to my attention lately that even I have said I love Jesus yet sometimes I don't show it. And please don't get me wrong I am not condemning you because "we all have fallen short of the glory of God" ~ Romans 3:23 but I want to get to know my God more. I want to love him more like I love the things I put my passion into. I get puzzled sometimes when I find my self trying to satisfy the love God gives me with other things like : Relationships, Materialistic things and things I put my time and devotion into excepting to get some kind of reward or something. I know in the bible it says : why do we look towards the things of the world because the things or the world will perish but the things of the Lord are ETERNAL. The fruits of the Lord are: Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness and self control those are the things that will remain. LOVE isn't that funny that is the first fruit of the spirit? 1 Corinthians 13:1-3 says if we do not have love we gain nothing. Sometimes I think we don't know how to love because we cannot accept the Love of the Father. We get caught up in our pride and our sinful ways and say I cannot let God love me because of what I have done did and will do. But truth be told God already knew where you were going to fall but he knows you will arise too Micah 7:8. He forgives you also not because of what we have done but what he sent His son to do. He doesn't look at our past with negative eyes but he still sees the beauty he created. He created us to Love him and for him to love us. His love won't ever fail us. So many times we get caught into this cycle of old habits and old sin why because it is what we know is comfortable we are creatures of habit. We feel feeble and weak and we feel we have lost all hope but that is a lie. Because the bible clearly states in Psalms 89:1 ~ I will declare that YOUR love stands FIRM forever. God's love won't ever change towards us our God isn't a God of change but of love he isn't a God of anger but a God of compassion towards his children. We make his love this complicated thing that we have to work for his love (maybe for some of you, that's how your earthly father was) We get this mindset that we also have to work for this love when rather it is a free gift. We say but I don't understand how it can be free there must be some fine print somewhere along this contract but honestly their isn't God loved us before we were born. He knows us from the inside out and he know everything about us more than we will ever know. We need to learn to accept his love and let it consume us from the inside out. Hebrews 12:29 states our God is a consuming fire. His love will spark something in you and that will help you learn to love others. When we accept his love it isn't just a momentary bliss but a life time bliss. It isn't any more of having to read your bible because that is what you are suppose to do but rather wanting to read it because you want to get to Him and his love better. Sometimes we get so empty we don't know how to fill back up but that where we can just fall on our knees and cry out saying God I need your love today. God hasn't ever stopped loving us. He whispers our names daily crying out " Oh my beautiful I love you so much and I am here for you and I know what you are going through but it will be all ok" No matter what situation nothing can ever separate us from the love of Christ ~Romans 8:37-39. Nothing will ever separate us. So many times we say we go through seasons of Us "feeling his love" or not feeling it. God's love isn't ever defined as a feeling or not God loves us REGARDLESS of what we have done or ever will do. His love is the same each morning and each night He thinks how beautiful his creation is and how precious we are to him. When we let God's love consume us we can also learn to love again love our father who hurt us when we were younger, love that enemy love that neighbor. Love is a critical thing to hold close to your heart. When we don't love we lose an opportunity to show Jesus to the world. Loving someone else is a choice it is a choice to wake up each day and say today I am going to love my sister. Its not a hard choice to make you either do it or you don't. The definition of love is found in the bible; 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 Love is patient, Love is kind, it doesn't envy or boast, it is not proud, it doesn't dishonor others, it isn't self seeking, it isn't easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs, love doesn't delight in evil but rejoices in truth. It always protects, it always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. Sometimes it is hard to live by the definition of love. I know if you put my name in replace of love I don't don half of those things. To love like I said is a choice. It is your choice also to wake up and say I am going to love Jesus today it is saying to God that I am going to trust you not matter what my situation may be today what winds might come but I am going to trust and keep you close to my heart. So lets learn to love again. Because he first loved us.

God Bless

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you, plans to give you a hope and a future plans to never harm you

In the Eye of the Storm

Lets face it, It has been winter here forever... Well it has felt like forever since the sun has shone... not only weather wise but spiritual wise too. A storm that just won't go away. A hurt a pain a rejection that has just sat in your heart your life and won't go away. We sit in all the junk because we don't know what to do we say but this is what I am comfortable in I don't want to move because what happens if I let go and more hurt and pain come along? WE gotta realize to move on though the more bad stuff that we hold on to that happened in the past the less good stuff we can hold onto in the future. And some of you might be saying right now that I can't love again because so many people including my family and people I thought I could trust HURT me. Well I am going to tell you one thing right now LOVE isn't about how much you can receive it is about how much you can GIVE. Because giving is far better than receiving the more you can give the less gunk and crap you hold onto. And we also say this a lot well that hurt and that pain is just a part of me I can't get rid of it because I deserve to be angry at that person. Well sorry to say this but if you hold onto it in the end it only ends up tearing you apart. I know because I am dealing with that in my life right now years of rejection hurt and pain feeding my self that lie everyday saying well this is just a part of me its certain that it won't go away. Well thats such a lie because when you get it out of your heart soul and mind you begin to heal. You begin to see that rainbow and the sunshine from the storm. Why we have trouble getting that dark parts out of our heart is because we will feel judged or rejected or condemned. We say I can't let that person see this about my life because then they won't look at me the same they won't love me the same. We GOTTA learn people the more we let out the more healing we can receive. The more you come out and say "I am struggling with porno, sex, alcohol, drugs, lying, stealing, lust ect. " the more you can stand firm and say I need help with this. The more you stand firm the more willing you are to get help and have an understanding of grace and mercy. So many times people won't come to the church because they think CHRISTIANS are All put together that they are the heirs of this earth and if they are struggling with an issue they come to the church and then they feel judged and that issue remains in their life and it tears their life apart. I can tell you right now church shouldn't ever be like that church is a place where you can come with all the gunk all over you and leave spiritually clean. Church isn't about telling you that you all are going to hell if you don't believe in Jesus. Church is about receiving grace and mercy from the body of Christ. What people need including myself isn't some judgmental state of being but rather a sanctuary of peace and grace. Sometimes also we gotta know that we need to love ourselves and forgive ourselves before we can love and forgive others. And that hurt and pain people has caused you in your life we just need to forgive them even if it is so stupid to a friend not calling you even though they promised to. When people hurt us or situation hurt us we tend to put up walls saying ok I am only going to let you this close into my life then you cannot see the rest of it. We stay hidden behind our offenses saying this wall will protect me from more hurt pain and anger. When truth be told it is just adding weight to our hearts. Are hearts become so heavy that we begin to sink in world sink in trouble sink in doubts and sink in what we think is failure. We stay like that because like I said that is what we are comfortable in we don't know any where else to go. But your asking how do I know if its worth it to let go to get up and move on? I am telling you once you start letting go of one thing the rest will follow. Its not going to happen over night but it is a process. Its going to get easier and you will be able to see that. It brings me to the story of the turtle and the hare a familiar childhood story a slow and steady pace wins the race. It might be slow at first but in the end it is going to be worth it. From personal experience I was doing a liquid fast for 2 weeks and the first week was the hardest thing I had ever done but I began to get encouraged and know I could do it. Life is similar to that when coming out of a hurt and painful season we begin to know it is helping us. Helping us to see that Sun when it is raining in our lives. A storm might not get easier it might just be a break. When I hear the word storm I think of a hurricane how there is an eye of the storm and more to follow life might be so hellish right now for you but it will calm down instead of believing that it will you gotta start declaring it will. If you have been holding onto what people have said that has hurt you, Start saying every morning NO this is not who I was called to be and this is NOT who I am or ever will be. A biggest lie I have dealt with from a loved one was this "Well your not a Christian" who defines me as a Christian is NOT THIS world NOT your family its YOUR JESUS that decides if you are a Christian. We gotta be a people that lets go of those dark areas and in time they will turn beautiful. And I can assure you the storm will pass and you don't have to say any more that this is just a part of my life but look unto God where YOUR help comes from. Listen to what your big daddy has to say. God Bless you all and I hope this helped you in some way.

The Weapons Of Worship

Worship what is the definition well I will tell you it means giving God all you got when you have nothing to offer him except your hands in the air. We got to be a generation that is convinced that our God is a good papa and a good God. We need to realize these hardships we go through aren't so we can suffer but so we can grow deeper and learn to trust God. It is easy to lift our hands in worship when we are having an excellent day every thing is going perfect but what about those dry seasons? The desert where we feel so alone dry and empty. Well... That is the perfect time to get closer to God and lift him high! God is worthy why because the bible says no because he is God and He will endure forever. He loved us before we knew of him. It makes me so sometimes sick to my stomach to glance at people while worship is going on and see them texting away or looking at their watch or talking with their neighbor I just wished they knew the God we serve how just loved we are by him. I want them to know that ya worship might be uncomfortable for a while but you got to press in with all you got and I know some of you might read this and say but you don't understand the situation I am in right now. Yes that might be true I don't understand everything what people go through, but I do know this our God is great (Psalm 135:5) We gotta realize that there are over 1000 promises in the bible and our God will never lie to us never disappoint us never get mad at us. He promises in Psalm 135:5 that He is a good God, Romans 8:28 That he works all out for good, Jeremiah 29:11 to never harm us. God is great and his word is true. We gotta to be also convinced and live in the Authority God has given us to its full potential. God didn't give us that gift just so it can be put on the shelf of our hearts but so we can use it. We have the power from Christ dwelling in us to rebuke the devil and all schemes of sin. Sin isn't easy to get rid of because once you get something attached to you it is hard to remove it like masturbation, porn, lying, gossip, pride and ect. YOU can though! God never said this walk would be easy but He did say you will see me through the storm and withdrawal of sin is the hardest thing ever. It is like a drug addict who has been doing drugs for years. You go through the process of saying I need it when it keeps making you sicker. Sin is that drug to the soul we say it in our minds well I am a Christian so I will just ask for forgiveness right after I sin. I am alone in my room God won't ever know. Its that sin that keeps eating our souls we say in our mind one more time and I'll be fine but I am telling you that the soul keeps getting sicker and sicker from the sin. God says worship him with all of your mind soul strength not just a part of the physical but it is deeper than that. Your arms maybe saying I am worshiping God whenever but what about your mind. Is your mind thinking about how well you did on your test or when will you eat again or on a endless puzzled path. We need to realize that we gotta worship God with ALL we got. God is calling us to be a generation of worship and praise. It isn't going to be sunshine and skittles the entire time but its through those trials those seasons we can rise on the wings of worship. We don't worship because of our benefit or because we will maybe say oh look at me I have it all together. Because I am going to tell you right now I don't have it all together and I won't ever till the day My Jesus calls me home. When you also worship with all that you have I am telling you chains will begin to break off. Freedom will arise from masturbation, lying, pride, hatefulness, apathy and ect. FREEDOM shout it out or say it out loud right now. WE are a free generation by the blood of our beautiful savior. God says in our weakness his power is made PERFECT ( 2 Corinthians 12:9). We need to realize and comprehend that we don't have to EVER have that mind set again saying I cannot worship because I did this today. Or I just cannot overcome this sin. WE overcome sin by repentance and WORSHIP. Every time you say the name of Jesus the devil shrivels up. Worship is powerful it has a great spiritual battle behind it. Worship wasn't made to just sing a simple song but it was made to Glorify our amazing God to lift him up and put him in his place of being. Worship is more than words on a screen its the soul cry of your heart. Our hearts burn for him thats why he created us is to worship him. God loves it when we worship him I believe as he is in heaven he says you make my heart smile. Its giving God a love song from our hearts :) God will come with his power and over sweep you during worship you just have to press in and pursue him and I promise you he will show up. He comes with fire and he comes with rain. God wants to worship him with a fiery passion because he sure had a passion for us when he died on that cross. So lets worship the God who made us lets worship him with everything we got.

God Bless

FOR GOD IS GOD AND HIS WORSHIPERS WILL ARISE THEY WILL BRING TRUE WORSHIP THEY WILL WORSHIP IN THE SPIRIT AND IN THE TRUTH ~John 4:24