In the Eye of the Storm

Lets face it, It has been winter here forever... Well it has felt like forever since the sun has shone... not only weather wise but spiritual wise too. A storm that just won't go away. A hurt a pain a rejection that has just sat in your heart your life and won't go away. We sit in all the junk because we don't know what to do we say but this is what I am comfortable in I don't want to move because what happens if I let go and more hurt and pain come along? WE gotta realize to move on though the more bad stuff that we hold on to that happened in the past the less good stuff we can hold onto in the future. And some of you might be saying right now that I can't love again because so many people including my family and people I thought I could trust HURT me. Well I am going to tell you one thing right now LOVE isn't about how much you can receive it is about how much you can GIVE. Because giving is far better than receiving the more you can give the less gunk and crap you hold onto. And we also say this a lot well that hurt and that pain is just a part of me I can't get rid of it because I deserve to be angry at that person. Well sorry to say this but if you hold onto it in the end it only ends up tearing you apart. I know because I am dealing with that in my life right now years of rejection hurt and pain feeding my self that lie everyday saying well this is just a part of me its certain that it won't go away. Well thats such a lie because when you get it out of your heart soul and mind you begin to heal. You begin to see that rainbow and the sunshine from the storm. Why we have trouble getting that dark parts out of our heart is because we will feel judged or rejected or condemned. We say I can't let that person see this about my life because then they won't look at me the same they won't love me the same. We GOTTA learn people the more we let out the more healing we can receive. The more you come out and say "I am struggling with porno, sex, alcohol, drugs, lying, stealing, lust ect. " the more you can stand firm and say I need help with this. The more you stand firm the more willing you are to get help and have an understanding of grace and mercy. So many times people won't come to the church because they think CHRISTIANS are All put together that they are the heirs of this earth and if they are struggling with an issue they come to the church and then they feel judged and that issue remains in their life and it tears their life apart. I can tell you right now church shouldn't ever be like that church is a place where you can come with all the gunk all over you and leave spiritually clean. Church isn't about telling you that you all are going to hell if you don't believe in Jesus. Church is about receiving grace and mercy from the body of Christ. What people need including myself isn't some judgmental state of being but rather a sanctuary of peace and grace. Sometimes also we gotta know that we need to love ourselves and forgive ourselves before we can love and forgive others. And that hurt and pain people has caused you in your life we just need to forgive them even if it is so stupid to a friend not calling you even though they promised to. When people hurt us or situation hurt us we tend to put up walls saying ok I am only going to let you this close into my life then you cannot see the rest of it. We stay hidden behind our offenses saying this wall will protect me from more hurt pain and anger. When truth be told it is just adding weight to our hearts. Are hearts become so heavy that we begin to sink in world sink in trouble sink in doubts and sink in what we think is failure. We stay like that because like I said that is what we are comfortable in we don't know any where else to go. But your asking how do I know if its worth it to let go to get up and move on? I am telling you once you start letting go of one thing the rest will follow. Its not going to happen over night but it is a process. Its going to get easier and you will be able to see that. It brings me to the story of the turtle and the hare a familiar childhood story a slow and steady pace wins the race. It might be slow at first but in the end it is going to be worth it. From personal experience I was doing a liquid fast for 2 weeks and the first week was the hardest thing I had ever done but I began to get encouraged and know I could do it. Life is similar to that when coming out of a hurt and painful season we begin to know it is helping us. Helping us to see that Sun when it is raining in our lives. A storm might not get easier it might just be a break. When I hear the word storm I think of a hurricane how there is an eye of the storm and more to follow life might be so hellish right now for you but it will calm down instead of believing that it will you gotta start declaring it will. If you have been holding onto what people have said that has hurt you, Start saying every morning NO this is not who I was called to be and this is NOT who I am or ever will be. A biggest lie I have dealt with from a loved one was this "Well your not a Christian" who defines me as a Christian is NOT THIS world NOT your family its YOUR JESUS that decides if you are a Christian. We gotta be a people that lets go of those dark areas and in time they will turn beautiful. And I can assure you the storm will pass and you don't have to say any more that this is just a part of my life but look unto God where YOUR help comes from. Listen to what your big daddy has to say. God Bless you all and I hope this helped you in some way.