A Starry Gaze

Lately for the past 3 night I have been going out on my porch and just worshiping under the stars, asking God to speak to me. Because I honestly believe there is something so divine and so unique about worshiping out side in stead of being contained. I asked God tonight what he wanted to talk to me about and he said his fatherly figure in my life. We all have fathers, weather they are in our lives or have passed on or who is are perfect "fairy-tale" of a dad nothing will ever compare to the kind of father our God is. God has been speaking to me lately that he is my heavenly papa. He is the one that sees me as his daughter. He said to me tonight that He is proud of me, that no matter what I do his love won't ever change. Do we get that picture HIS LOVE WON'T EVER CHANGE no matter what we do, his love won't change. And that is a promise and God has never broken any of His promises. I think so often we say but God our earthly father gets so enraged when we screw up that "he" holds it above my head till I can finally earn his love again. It is such a twisted mindset to look at our God with that view. Because I know I sure have done it and still will probably struggle with it to not compare my earthly father figure to my heavenly one. My heavenly father says He will never harm me or forsake and never abandon me. He says His grace and His mercies are new each morning, He says I am worth HIS son dying for me. He is up in heaven telling everyone that He is pleased with me that I don't have to work to get to a certain level with His love, He isn't ever going to tell me oh that was good but you can do better. He is proud, and that makes my heart smile to know that I can be who I am and He will except me for that, that I don't have to have it all together, I don't have to be perfect but I can be myself. I know that God is that same way with all of you, He isn't asking for you to be perfect, isn't asking for us to have it all together but to seek him fully with no questions just a child like faith. To just trust him because ALL of our days are ORDAINED in front of Him, that He is in control and we are not. To cry out to Him and truly say God I need you. He will embrace you like a Papa. He won't ever let go or tell you to stop talking but rather He says won't you talk to me more? This season I am going through has been about trust and now seeing God as my heavenly father, there are times where he is a lover, a friend, a standard but right now He is my father. He will sustain me with His love. And to know that His love is enough His Love is my portion it is all I need. All I need is Him and my soul will be satisfied. And to be honest to fully grasp the concept that His love isn't some kind of fairy tale but a truth. A solid unshakable truth that covers us from head to foot , and is so deep and wide. That nothing will ever be able to separate us from His great love. His fatherly love. His love for all His children young or old. And what the cool thing is, is He has such a Hope and passion for us and in us. He longs for us to seek His face, longs for us to call upon Him for when we call He will answer, never will you get the voice mail of God. He is always there and He won't ever leave us or forsake. I am blessed to know He is showing me this season and I am excited to where He is going to take me next.

God Bless