Heart Strings Have Been Strung...

Gray... A color which doesn't have a lot of spunk or jazz to it. A color which often gets forgotten. A color which is made from black and white....

Black and white seem it is either or... Either this way or that way some people like myself only usually seek in the black and white that there is no gray in life but today was a different day for me for the first time ever I saw in gray...

Today I ran into some people that once were very dear to my heart and dear to my life. It was a rather painful experience for I have felt heartbreak before but nothing prepared me for this moment today. It is crazy going through heartbreak where you built part of your life with who ever that may be whether it be a boyfriend/girlfriend or a family or a friend.

And then when you see that person, it seems like all those memories have had the color sucked out of them and they are just gray memories now... Not black and white for there is beauty in black and white but gray dull and lifeless...

Dull that is what the feeling I felt like all the happiness from those "memories" where washed away from the pain that was so deep.

Heartbreak is so hard to talk about I think I know why, it is because our hearts were never meant to experience it... Never meant to be shattered but rather held, never meant to be broken but rather whole.

Hearts have a tremendous amount of love in them and when that love is broken a piece of our hearts goes with that situation. And our hearts can never get that piece back which was lost....

Our hearts were meant for love and meant for community they weren't ever meant to get hurt. I think heartbreak is part of the fall, it comes because of sin. Sin of others and sometimes because of expectations.

Someone once said that "expectation is the root of all heartache". Ain't that the truth how many times has that happened in my life oh so many and I am learning to start to not have as high expectations but to lower them. And to live the day and not worry about tomorrow.

Heartache will happen in this life but it won't last forever, and yes it is sad that sometimes you will encounter a person and you can just say to yourself "Yes I knew them one time in my life..."

So maybe gray does have a purpose to show that gray times can sometimes have a rainbow around the corner....