The Fruit of Patience

Be patient... those words seem to ring in the back of my head like all the time. I know that is one of the fruits of the spirit that I know my character needs to develop more in. I think of the smallest things I become impatient over waiting for the mircowave, still in traffic,waiting at the Border... I know those are the smallest things and they shouldn't matter. And yet I know that God is so developing the fruit of patience in me. Whether that be with my life goals, future relationship, future careers, all the things of the future let's just put it at that. I think so often I know in my life I worry about the things I shouldn't be worrying about. I know that is one thing God is showing me so much of right now is to not be anxious about anything but just to Trust in Him because He knows what He is doing. Right now I am sitting just pondering over the most amazing things God is showing me right now. I am looking out my window and looking at the garden that my dad planted. And realizing I am just like one of those seeds in God's bigger garden. Seeds they don't worry when they are going to start to grow or when they are going to produce a flower and than that flower turns into a wonderful fruit. And that is what I want to be I want to be that seed just wanting to grow and grow into who God has called me to be. I don't need to worry because all through out the Bible it talks multiple times about the birds and the animals God created aren't freaking out because they don't have food to eat but rather they look to the Creator who satisfies them with good things. And in the New Testament how much more valuable am I to God than the sparrows? And I don't need to worry I can just rely on God and know that He is a faithful God and that I can trust Him. Because in Him alone I put my trust and I won't be put to shame. Waiting for a relationship seems to be a big summer trend right now or just our culture i.e. "How to make the most of being Single, Single and Happy, How to be happy being single" the list goes on and on an on. Article after article on the web gets us so spun up in this culture idea of their is a two spectrum scale. You are either in a relationship or single and honestly I think I can say that most of our western culture that has defined what you are in society but honestly I don't want that label I don't want to be known as "single" but I want to be known as that woman of God who is trusting Him with everything and learning to cultivate my heart in Him so I can produce the spirit of patience. Because with out Him I am nothing, I honestly think too many Christian women in today's society are so quickly to jump into a relationship because we are afraid the "one" won't ever come around or this is what we have to settle for. But honestly the only One you should be investing your heart in this time of waiting is Jesus. He is the only One who can show you a divine unconditional love, He is the only one who knows the desires of heart and tells you it is ok to wait for the Man of God he is preparing for you. I mean look at the stories in the Bible with Abraham, The Israelites. Etc. They waited a long time for the promise God gave to them. I remember taking Old Testament Survey last year and my professor stated this is always the cases for story after story in the Bible. First God gave the promise, than God Tested the Promise, then the promise was fulfilled. I am not afraid of waiting anymore for whoever my future spouse may be, because I know God is a loving and faithful God and He has the best interests in mind. I mean we are His children and He wants the best for me. I was on a walk the other night and God is like "Dude I got your back, I mean your picture is on my refrigerator along with all my other children." So I don't need to worry, I have nothing to worry about in this time of waiting I get to press deeper and deeper with my relationship with God and seek Him first and only. I mean God desires to give the best to His children I look at it this way as a nanny I would never give the children a dessert before the dinner course because I know it would ruin the children's appetite and they wouldn't get the proper nutrients they need. In the same way I know that is what God is doing right now in my life He doesn't want me to settle for less because He wants me to get the most important nutrients out of my relationship with Him first before He places me in a relationship with a guy. He wants all of me and I want to give Him all of me because I can't give Him half my heart anymore. I can't be over here on one side with my heart in pinterest looking at love quotes and feeling sorry for myself. Because honestly I have the best love that was ever given to me. A Saviour who died so I could have a relationship with Him first and foremost. I am learning nothing else in the world matters because with out Christ I am NOTHING. And if I don't take this season to cultivate my heart fully in Him for Him to plant the seeds in my heart and to work on my character and my garden in my heart then how am I ever suppose to help support another garden. If my heart garden is dying, weed infested etc. then I most certainly can't help encourage another person to take care of their garden. Now hear me out that only God can take care of our Gardens it is up to Him to water and plant the seeds but it is up to us to let the seeds be watered and for us to accept the sunshine and let the plants grow or be willing to get rid of weeds. I am learning so much in this season and I am learning what true thankfulness is, I mean you look at the Psalms and it is all over i.e "Oh Lord your love endures forever so my lips shall sings praise, let us come into the courts with thanksgiving." Being thankful means what ever season you are in telling God just how Good He is. And how HE IS EXALTED above all. It means thanking Him that you may be single so you can go deeper with God and not looking is this the "one" or so forth. It is about being content in His presence and honestly that is where I am solidly at right now being content in His presence I haven't always been this way it has taken a long time to realize that without Christ I am nothing and I have nothing and that relationship that is the most important. That is why I was created is to be a Glory carrier. I don't need to worry because I trust my Saviour and just like Psalm talks about "God is within Her and she will not fail." God's got my back and my future so therefore I don't have to worry because He is in control. I encourage each of you to pursue God and seek First His kingdom and be enthralled by His beauty. Blessings.